I'm ready for the weekend. We had a change in plans because we thought it was going to rain all weekend.
Instead of going camping, we're going to Kelly's aunt's cabin in the Poconos. It seems that it's not going to rain, but I think things worked out for the best. It's going to be really cold at night and this Florida girl tries to avoid those temperatures at all costs!

I found out why Josh didn't include Amy on the email. It's because she's not coming. She's not coming because she told him she has feelings for him and tried to kiss him. He said he didn't want to be harsh on her but he doesn't feel comfortable being around her anymore. He said he's not going to hang out with someone who doesn't respect our relationship. It's cool that he's so committed to us - and trust me, I'm ready to kick her ass - but I kind of feel bad for her. Not only was she rejected as a potential girlfriend, but she was also rejected as a friend.

It's going to be a long night. Choir practice, choir practice and more choir practice... Don't get me wrong, I love it, but I'm kind of tired and would love to curl up on the couch tonight. At least "7th Heaven" is a rerun tonight so I won't miss anything...not that I care that much anyway. The show has become pretty lame. I used to love it but now it annoys me. I thought it was supposed to be about good family values but the kids are all messed up. I'm not really sure what kind of message they're supposed to be sending. But what do I know? Before Aunt Lu I lived in the most dysfunctional family in Florida!

So I just checked my email and there's a message from Josh to "the gang" about the camping trip we're taking this weekend. The recipient list included me, Mol, Tim, Alex, Jen, Terry, Lindsay, Kim, Lauren, Christine, Kelly, Jason, and Keith. That's all normal, but over the weekend Amy and her friend were talking about coming with us so I wonder why they're not on the list. Molly thinks I'm looking for things that aren't there, but I just have a gut feeling that Josh left them off the list for a reason. Hmmm...

Molly went head to head with the Vice Principal again today about Christmas. It was like a repeat of last year. She wants to decorate the Student Council office for Christmas and he says no. She's now on a mission to tick him off at all costs - without getting herself in trouble of course. I don't want her to get in trouble, but I kind of want her to fight this fight. We're not stopping others from decorating for their holiday, we just want to make things festive for ours. For Christ's sake (no pun intended!) it's not like we want to hang crosses around school and read scripture. We were just thinking some holly! If things keep going like this we'll be canceling the holiday choir concert! Who knows what we'll be able to sing. I just don't understand why people have to ruin other people's fun.

Well, I'm due back in choir practice so I have to run...

It's been a fun weekend. Friday night we managed to get our haunted hayride in despite the off and on rain. I had to fill in at a class at the dance studio Friday afternoon so I went straight to Alex's house from there. We were meeting there for the hayride. I got to see Lindsay! I didn't realize how much I've missed her until I saw her. Molly, Tim, Terry and Jennifer were there as well. Josh brought Keith down with his friends Amy and Tanya. I was kind of surprised to see Amy since I had once thought she was after Josh.

The hayride was fun. I tried not to let it urk me that Amy was there. Josh wasn't paying much attention to her so that helped but I didn't like the idea that they were all staying at the Anderson's house.

Yesterday I had to work at the dance studio again. I was there all morning and then I spent the afternoon doing homework. Later in the day I stopped over at the Anderson's. When I got there Amy was like, "we were just talking about you." I kind of gave Josh a look and he told me they were talking about what schools I was sending applications to. It kind of opened a can of worms. I want to stay within driving distance to Aunt Lu but my mom made me apply to some schools in Florida. I hadn't mentioned it to Josh because I'm not planning to go to school in Florida but when I told him yesterday he looked upset. Never mind the fact that I also applied to a handful of schools in PA, NJ, CT and NY. He just zeros in on the Florida schools, and somehow I couldn't help but think that that is what Amy wanted.

We went to Alex's Halloween Party last night. Josh pulled me aside to talk about the school thing. He said that he didn't want to hold me back if I wanted to move back to Florida, but I could tell that the idea of it upset him. I told him that I only applied to those schools to appease my mom. My first choice is to go to school in New York. I've always dreamed of living there and the fact that he's there is even better. I don't know that I'll be at NYU but I'd love to be in the city. I could take the train home to see Aunt Lu any time and he'd be there too.

The party was fun. We played games, watched scary movies. It was a good time. It was nice having my cousin home and spending some time with her. Also, Alicia from choir showed up with Lauren! Alex had invited her. I could tell she was happy to be there but she also looked really nervous. I was trying to talk to her to keep her calm but she clearly still likes Alex.

This morning I went to the early church service with Aunt Lu, Aunt Linda and Lindsay. Mr. and Mrs. Anderson were there but no Josh or Lauren. I kind of expected that they wouldn't be there today - especially with Josh's friends in town. Molly and I met up with them for lunch and then they headed back to NY and we headed to Macy's for some shopping. Neither of us bought our homecoming dressed but I got a pair of jeans and Molly got a cute sweater. I guess we'll have to hit the mall again to get dresses.

Well, homework time now...

I am so excited for this weekend. The whole gang is going to be here! Lindsay, Terry, Jennifer, Kelly, Jason...my sweetie! :) Josh is bringing Keith and a few friends down for the weekend too. And we're finally dragging Tom out with us. He joined a band over the summer so we haven't gotten to hang out with him in a long time!

This week has been agonizing...For some reason I've been missing Josh more than usual. We've been sending each other quick emails but we've both been on the run so we haven't had a chance to talk on the phone at all. The restaurant that he plays piano at on Wednesday nights has needed him to fill in all week so he doesn't get home until late. Tonight I'll be at the Student Council meeting so I'm not sure if we'll get to talk tonight either. Oh well. I'll see him tomorrow.

I walked into choir this afternoon and Alex was sitting in my seat chatting it up with Alicia. I wonder if he's caught on that she likes him. It's so obvious to me, but I don't think it's always as obvious to the person who is being liked. Does that make sense?

I'm totally itching for Christmas to get here. I'm not sure why. I just want to listen to my Christmas music. I loaded all of Aunt Lu and Uncle Bill's Christmas music onto my iPod last night. I asked Aunt Lu if we could put up the Christmas tree and she just gave me this crazy look. I decided not to push it. She told me to focus on Halloween first. I guess she's right but if Macy's can put up Christmas decorations, why can't I?

Speaking of Macy's...Molly and I are going to head over there Sunday afternoon. We need dresses for the Homecoming Dance. I'm really looking forward to this dance. We find out who's been nominated for the Homecoming Court tomorrow, and I have a feeling that Molly's going to get the crown! Plus I like any excuse I can get to get on the dance floor - especially when my dance partner is Josh Anderson.

I decided to hang out in the library during lunch today. Molly had to go to the dentist because a filling fell out and Alex is helping out in the choir room. I figured I'd stop in and update the blog since it's been a week.

Things are going well. There's a lot of interest in my ballroom dance class for kids! I'm so excited. We're planning to start holding classes in January provided that we get enough boys who are interested. So far a lot of the interest is from little girls.

My weekend was nice. On Friday I went out to dinner with Aunt Lu and then over to the Anderson's to watch movies with Josh. On Saturday Mrs. Anderson asked Josh and I to go out and buy some Halloween decorations for her house. We spent almost the whole day doing that but it was fun. I never really had fall like this when I lived in Florida so I always get excited about doing seasonal things. And it was particularly nice to be outside since it had rained for the previous ten day!

After running around all day we relaxed on the hammock and then went out to dinner. It was a pretty low key weekend but it was nice. Josh and I have been so busy hanging out with our friends that we hadn't had a lot of alone time until this weekend.

Now I'm getting ready for the upcoming weekend. I'm planning a haunted hayride for our friends. Lindsay and Terry are driving home from Penn State this weekend which means Jennifer will probably come down from New York. It will be fun to have everyone together!

Well, Tim asked Molly out! She was so happy today. They are going out Friday night, which means that Josh and I will actually get a Friday night to ourselves this week. It seems that every Friday night we end up hanging out with the gang, which is great - I love my friends - but Friday nights are hard because I've been missing him all week and I want alone time.

This past weekend we didn't get much time together. Friday night we went to Molly's house. It was pouring out so we all hung out inside and watched movies. On Saturday Josh went back into the city for a party and Molly, Jennifer and I had a girl's night. We went to see "Just Like Heaven." It was so good. Total chick flick though. I'm sure Josh is glad I saw it with the girls. He came back to PA on Sunday and stayed until Monday. He and Jen had off for Columbus Day - Lucky! But we have off on Thursday so I guess it evens out.

Things are busy at school. Our newest project for senior seminar is to propose a business idea. I was telling Mona (my boss from the dance studio) about an idea I had as a ballroom dancing class for kids. I decided not to propose it for my class, but Mona asked if I would like to put a class together at the studio! She said she'd cut me in on some of the profits from the class in addition to my regular pay! Awesome. I'm so excited about it. She and I are going to talk more tomorrow when I go in for work.

I know it's been awhile. I had an unexpected trip out of town and away from the computer. Last Thursday my grandfather had a heart attack. My dad thought I should fly down to Tennessee to see him in case he didn't make it so I flew down Friday after school and stayed until Tuesday afternoon. It turns out that if my grandfather changes his diet and exercises he should be okay. It was nice to see my family, but the circumstances were nerve-wracking.

Anyway, I'm home and looking forward to a fun weekend. I missed seeing Josh last weekend so I'm counting down the hours until tomorrow night. I think we're going over to Molly's house for an impromptu party. She's trying to hang out with Tim so she's coming up with excuses to see him. I hope the boy just asks her out. He seems to like her.

Well, that's all for now. More later... NB