The Full Moon party ended up being quite the evening. Josh and I got there and Lauren showed up with Patrick. She broke up with her boyfriend and apparently is now dating Patrick.

This set Josh off big time. During the time that Josh and I were broken up, Patrick and I had a casual relationship. He lived in Florida and I was in Pennsylvania so it was never serious, but we would get together when we were in the same state. It started in the spring of 2013 after Josh's father got his new heart. I had hoped that Josh and I would get back together. We were so close during that time, but Josh wanted to focus on taking care of his parents and didn't feel that he could start a relationship at that time. Patrick happened to be around and we started seeing each other.

One night we walked over to Angelo's to pick up take out and we bumped into Josh as we were walking out. Josh started to give me a hard time about being with Patrick and we ended up having a big fight in the parking lot. I told him that he couldn't decide not to be with me and then give me a hard time for being with someone else. I told him that it hurt me too much to have him coming in and out of my life. He backed off after that and didn't say another word about Patrick.

So seeing Patrick set Josh off and he told Lauren about my former relationship with Patrick which got her all upset. We all ended up leaving the party. Josh and I went home and he was all worked up over Lauren dating "this guy."

It look me hours to talk him down and convince him that Patrick was always just a casual relationship to me. I mean, I'm kind of surprised that I even have to convince him. Josh has always been the one, and I live in our house with him, and I have his last name, and how can he even be worried about Patrick?

So on Saturday mornings I teach an early morning fitness class and then I grab a shower and meet Josh in town for breakfast or coffee. We started this little weekly routine because our lives can be hectic and it's a nice time for the two of us to just sit down and talk. Well, this morning we're sitting at breakfast and Lauren barges in and sits down with us and starts asking us to bless her relationship with Patrick!

Ugh. So much for a nice morning with my husband. This got him all worked up again and they were having a heated discussion. There were a lot of power outages in the area yesterday and today because of a storm that came through so the place was packed and it was becoming a little embarrassing. We all ended up leaving the restaurant ticked off.

I'd really like to ask Patrick what he's thinking, but I feel like it would make things worse. I also can't blame Josh for being upset that Patrick is around, because I'm sure I'd be unhappy if Laura came back into our lives.

Hello readers! Winter has been slow - which I think it how it's supposed to be so I'm not complaining. We've had a few nice snow days which means that I got to loaf around the house with Josh, watch movies and just enjoy being inside.

On Monday I'm heading down to Florida with John to meet with the employees in our Sarasota office. I'm looking forward to enjoying the warm weather. Natalie is coming with me so at least I'll have some fun too.

Arie is getting married in April so I'll be headed down again next month. Josh will be with me on that trip and it will be all fun so I'm looking forward to that trip a little more.

We are trying to figure out our plans for the summer. I want to get some travel out of my system. Josh has baby fever and I told him I don't want to get pregnant until we have a little more time together, just the two of us. I really do want to have a family with him, but I'm a little scared. It's such a big deal to have a baby and it freaks me out. I just have a hard time imagining myself as someone's mom. And I didn't have the best parents so what if I screw up the kids? I'm sure Josh will make up for it, but still... I'm sure he'll be an amazing father.

We are going over to Josh's aunt's house tonight. She is throwing another one of her full moon parties. I told Josh he has to come along this time. I'm not sure he really wants to go but he's being a good sport about it. Lauren and her boyfriend are going to be there so it won't be a bunch of women.

Well, that's all for now...