The Super Bowl party was fun last night. Molly made this chilli cheese dip that was so good! I'm glad that she and Alex are able to be friends after all that they've been through. And Jennifer seemed to be in better spirits too. She wasn't so caught up on Terry.

Josh wants me to visit him in New York in two weeks. And he made a point of mentioning that he doesn't want me to bring anyone with me this time. I just don't know if my mother will go for it. Remember how crazy she was last summer when she thought things were getting too "intense"? I think she'll think things are "intense" if I tell her I'm going up there by myself to spend the weekend with him. I really want to go but I just don't see my mom going for it. She doesn't seem to trust me when it comes to Josh. I've been psychoanalyzing here and I think it's because she's afraid I'll latch on to a scumbag guy like she did...But Josh is NOTHING like my father.

Speaking of my parents...I'm still waiting for my mom to leave my dad - as promised. Sigh...I'm afraid she's never going to break free. I'm even more afraid that I'm never going to break free. I'm driving around in a car that he paid for and I'm going to go to college on his dime. I considered being above it all and struggling through college for the next four years but then I decided I'd rather take the money. I figure he owes me and if being a check book is the only thing he's good for then I might as well use him for his money. I know, I know...I'm rationalizing...

Anyway, I have to grab something for dinner and then get to choir practice!