I have a student council meeting tonight so I figured I'd hang out at school and study...and blog!

So my American Idol predictions were way off. I got Kat as runner up correct though. Chris getting booted in the #4 spot really threw things off, and I didn't expect Kellie Pickler to bomb two weeks in a row. I loved Elliot, Kat, and Taylor so I was happy with the way it ended. I liked Elliot more and more throughout the competition and I think he's the best vocalist.

I miss Josh. I think it's because of the disagreement I had with my mother over the weekend in regards to my relationship with him. It made me realize how lucky I am to have a great guy in my life.

Another fun fact about my recent trip to Florida is that my mom is still with my dad and they were fighting like cats and dogs. I don't understand why she puts up with it! His drinking, his verbal abuse...He has money, but for Christ's sake, is it worth it? It wouldn't be if it were me.

So the swim club opens Saturday morning. I love the opening of the swim club. It means summer is about to start and all the fun that comes along with it is here! I love summer at the swim club. I love getting into mischief with Molly and Henry. And there's nothing like looking across the pool and catching Josh's eye and seeing him smile back at me. Plus I love having the kids running around and having a good time around me.

I'm also working on getting the dance competition for this summer. I tried to convince Josh to do it but he's taking a summer class that might cause interference. He promised me that he'd do it next year. I'm hoping that I'll be able to dance with him. This year, I'll be working behind the scenes so we decided I shouldn't compete.

I know, I've been MIA. May is always a busy month. Josh's b-day was last week. He didn't want to have a party or anything so I went out to dinner with him and his parents. The two of us went out to celebrate on our own the night before. It's so weird. He's not a teenager anymore. I can't believe I'm dating a twenty year old!

Last weekend I was in Florida. Arie's prom date dumped him at the last minute so I flew down and went with him. It was pretty easy convincing my mom to buy my plane ticket. She's been itching to get me down there. It was kind of weird. It doesn't really feel like home any more and I actually felt homesick for Aunt Lu and Josh. I'm glad I'll be going to school close to "home" next year.

Despite feeling homesick and feeling weird about being at a prom without Josh, it was a good time. I really want to think back on my proms 20 years from now and remember how amazing it was to go with Josh. I was a little worried this would cloud that but it didn't. I was just going with a friend as a favor. Plus I got to hang out with Natalie so that made it even more fun. And I got to see a lot of old friends from Florida. It's amazing how time and distance can make things seem different. Things that bothered me before, just seem petty and stupid now. It was nice being able to hang out with old friends without worrying about dumb things.

The rest of my weekend in Florida was okay. My mom was giving me grief about Josh. She likes him but she thinks he's too old for me. She keeps asking me why I don't want to be free to date other guys! Hmm...well, maybe it's because I found a great guy who is smart, funny, talented and unbelievably adorable in everyway. He treats me with kindness and respect and he loves me. Why on earth would I give that up to date other guys? You would think she'd be happy for me, what with the jerk she ended up with...but whatever. I love Josh, he loves me. My mom's in Florida anyway so there's not much she can do, and Aunt Lu approves and loves Josh so that's all there is to it. I listened to Delta Goodrem's "A Little Too Late" on my iPod the whole plane ride home.

I haven't seen Josh since before I left. He went with his dad out to LA last weekend and is there until Friday. His dad had business and Josh is kind of just hanging out until the swim club opens (this weekend!) so he tagged along.

Well, that's all for now. I'll try to be a bit better about keeping things updated!

Ugh, Nick Nicholas is hanging around me again. He keeps hanging out by my locker, talking loud and being obnoxious. Then at lunch he sits at the table next to mine and does the same thing...talks loud and acts obnoxious. And when I look at him he makes comments about me being his ex-wife. So bizzar...at least I only have to see him for a few more weeks and then it's summer and high school will be a thing of the past.

I am so ready for school to be over. I'm so over it. I just wish it were over me. I still have to work on a few papers and study for finals. It's so hard. The weather is finally getting nice, Josh will be home for the summer in less than a week, and I just want to chill out.

Josh and I are going to go pick up some books on Tennessee for our road trip. I can't wait. We're going to the shore for a few days after graduation and then heading down south. That way we will be back and won't miss too much of swimming lessons and day camp at the club.

It's going to be a fun summer. I can feel it. I just need to keep reminding myself that summer isn't here yet. I don't want to get in summer mode too early.

It's been a while since I last checked in. Last week I was pretty much prom obsessed so I wasn't thinking of much else. The prom was last Friday. It was a blast. We did the limo thing this year. I've never been in a limo before so I got to feel like a celebrity for the night. I have to say, Molly and I were the hottest chicks in the joint...but I'm probably biased! ;) But Josh and Tim seemed to agree and that's all that really matters.

The prom was fun, you know, the typical prom: pictures, food dancing. The best part of the weekend was going to the beach house. Molly, Tim, Alex, Alicia, Lauren, Josh, Kim, her date, Randy, Jason, Lindsay and Jennifer were all there. It was nice to see Lindsay - and to see her and Jen getting along again!

Jason pulled me aside on Friday night and told me not to let the thing with Kelly upset me. He said she was just playing games to get his attention and she didn't really want Josh. He also told me not to worry because Josh would never leave me. He said that he's never seen Josh so in love with anyone. It was really sweet.

The second day Jason left and Kelly came. Josh and I went out to lunch with Jason. When we got back Kelly was there and Jason was on his way to Princeton. It was a little weird at first. I think Kelly felt really uncomfortable around me. She pretty much stayed away from Josh and me the whole weekend.

On another note, I told Josh two weekends ago that I'm not going to school in New York next year. He took it well. He said he was disappointed but glad that I'd be in New Jersey and not in Florida. We figured that even though I won't be in New York, it will be a lot easier for us to see each other.

Well, AI is about to start so I've got get to the TV. That's all for now...