I swear sometimes I am such a dork. Josh and I went out to lunch today. It was one of those leisurely days. We ate and then walked around town. Nothing special or exciting happened but part of me is still in the "I can't believe he's really here" stage so I was pretty happy that we were spending the day together.

When we got home he walked me up to the door, wrapped his arms around me and kissed me good-bye. As we parted I sighed, "Happiness." He just smiled at me but was probably thinking, "what the heck is she talking about?" I was instantly embarrassed. I mean, who just goes around saying every emotion they feel?

I must have looked horrified because he asked me what was wrong. I told him I was embarrassed and he kissed my forehead and told me that he thinks it's cute. I couldn't tell if it was patronizing or genuine.

Still, what is my problem? I mean, seriously! Seriously! Why can't I get it together and at least attempt to play it cool? I don't want him to think I'm putty in his hands. I have leave a little mystery between us, don't I?