I'm going to New York tomorrow - I can't wait. Natalie and I are going shopping. When we were little and living in Florida we would always talk about how when we were "grown up" we'd go for day trips to shop in Manhattan. I guess that means we're grown up. :)

Tonight I'm going to see the guys sing at Angelo's. At least that makes it feel a little bit like summer - even though I'm neck deep in school work.

I'm still getting used to not working at the swim club. It feels so weird not to be there. I keep reminding myself that Josh, Henry and Molly aren't there either and that helps make me feel better. But I miss it. I miss the fun we have and the carefree summery feeling that the place inspires. I like carefree and summery.

I should probably log off. I have to get moving to Pennsylvania. I promised my mom and Aunt Lu that I'd have dinner with them tonight before heading over to Angelo's.

Nicole Anderson...has a nice ring to it, don't you think? No, Josh didn't propose - and I'm not itching to get married any time soon - but we did talk about the future and he sees me in his so that's a good sign. It came up Saturday night when we were sitting on Molly's roof deck. He was looking at me and said, "Wow, our kids would be absolutely beautiful."

I was surprised at first and I asked him if he wanted to have kids with me. And he said "someday" - SOMEDAY! I've always thought Josh would be in my future but I never knew that he saw me in his. I was very happy. :)

Our weekend was fun and it was nice not to have to think about school work. My summer classes are killing me. I guess that's what you get when you cram a whole semester into a few short weeks. The long classes and the overload of homework at a time when I want to be playing and having fun is not going well. (Damn that psychic!) I am counting down the days until July gets here.

Well, back to home work. I want to get it done so that I can enjoy this weekend too!

I'm going to the beach for the weekend - can't wait! It actually looks like it's going to be nice out. The weather the past few weeks has been so rainy! I'm beginning to think they should change the phrase to "May showers bring June flowers."

I'm just waiting for Josh to get back from the city and then we're off for a fun weekend at Molly's. Alex is coming down from New York with Josh, Nat's going to be there, as well as Jason, Amanda, Jennifer, Sean, Lindsay and Lauren. I also found out today that Adam and Patrick will be there. That should be interesting...

We're going to do the boardwalk tonight. I am craving cotton candy and ice cream. I think we'll be spending the rest of the weekend at Molly's. I'm sure there will be plenty to blog about on Monday!

Yippie!!! Mark and Kristi won the mirror ball trophy! I was so excited. I was almost as excited as when Josh and I won our competition! I guess I just really, really wanted to see a woman win the contest.

I've been listening to lots of music so I'm ready for our dance competition this summer. I listen and choreograph in my head until I feel something special taking place. That's when I know the song is right. Of course, I have to get approval to use the song, and that doesn't always happen (like our Rhumba last year). I can't wait to get dancing again. I think all of the school work is dragging me down and I'm not getting any sort of creative outlet right now.

I'm going on vacation with my grandparents and father as soon as classes end. We're going to Michigan to see the Great Lakes. It's not Europe, but at least I'll get to spend some time with my father. He's been feeling better and the doctors are optimistic. Maybe now I'll have a real chance at a relationship with him.

Why did I decide to take two summer classes? I should be relaxing and enjoying my summer but instead I'm up to my eyeballs in school work. Not. Fun.

I did manage to pull myself away from homework last night to watch DWTS. My votes went to Kristi. Jason is a decent dancer but he hit a plateau a few weeks ago and never progressed. I have no idea how/why Christian is in the finals. I think Priscilla should have gotten further - and Mario (as much as I dislike his sour puss partner) was much, much better. I hope Kristi wins this. It's time for a woman to get the mirror ball trophy.

I'm looking forward to the long weekend. We're going down to Molly's shore house for a few days. The weather forecast is looking good (finally, a break from all the rain!). I'm hoping to spend some time on the beach with a good book and lots of relaxation time!

Josh is a college grad!!! I'm so proud of him. Yesterday was his commencement. We went to Tavern on the Green to celebrate. That place is so nice! Today is Josh's birthday so the celebration continues. The Anderson's are having a graduation/birthday bash for him this Saturday. I'm taking him out to dinner tonight to celebrate.

I was reading my blog from last year. I was traveling to South Dakota and going to Mt. Rushmore. I was so stressed about Josh's birthday. I seems so silly now...the crazy way we acted around each other when I got home and all the drama with Patrick, Tanya and the skunk - so glad all of that is behind us!

My summer classes started on Monday. I really wish I had had more down time because I have so much work to do. I guess that's what happens when they cram a semester into six weeks! Well, back to work so that I can enjoy my weekend celebrating with Josh.

I am loafing around the house and acting like a bum today. It's rainy and classes are over so I'm doing nothing. Molly and Amanda are at their parent's houses and Natalie is on her way to Florida. I have the place to myself. It's so relaxing.

I spent the last hour surfing the web for ideas for Josh's birthday present and graduation present. I have no idea what to get him this year. All I know is that it has to be special.

He's in New York today working on a demo. He's stayed in contact with the guy from Nashville and they are still interested in working with him. It's exciting but scary at the same time. I want him to live out his dreams, but I also don't want him to move away and forget about me. It's silly, I know, to be thinking that way. I know that what we share is too special for him to just forget about me. Still, I get worried from time to time.

I read Nat's blog today. It looks like Kelly and Jason are over again and she still has a thing for Josh. At least she's one girl that I don't have to worry about. Josh is disgusted by her.

Well, back to my online shopping...

I'm back! I finished finals yesterday so I'm free now! It's so good to be free. :) At least for a little while anyway.

This week is Josh's exam week but he only has two finals so he's much more laid back about it than I was. He took me out to dinner last night to celebrate my freedom. After dinner we watched "Dancing With The Stars."

I have a lot to say about the show this season. Monday night's episode had me so mad! The scores were so unfair. Christian was way over scored while Kristi and Mario were way under scored. Kristi did an 8 turn spin and Carrie Ann's reaction was, "I didn't care for it." WHAT?!?!? Kristi was the only star to really capture the feel of the Samba and Carrie Ann under scored her because she didn't care for it? I thought Mario was also fantastic. His Jive may have been a little messy, but I thought the Waltz was beautiful. I'm not a Karina fan (I think she's a poor loser) but the choreography was amazing and I thought Mario executed it well. I was really disappointed in the scores they were given and the subsequent dismissal from the show.

The Samba that Jason and Edyta did was a big disappointment for me. Josh and I danced to "It Had Better Be Tonight" for our Samba last year. Not to toot my own horn, but I thought ours was much better - and the Samba was Josh's most difficult dance. It sounded like they slowed down the tempo of the song and I felt like Jason and Edyta were doing the Samba in slow motion. I also thought that Cheryl and Christian were over scored. The Fox Trot was boring, and I couldn't tell what beat they were dancing on in the Mambo. I'm pretty sure they were dancing on one instead of two.

So that's my DWTS review for the week. I'm still hoping for a Kristi win. It's time a woman claims that mirror ball trophy again!

As soon as Natalie gets home from work we are heading down to the shore for the afternoon. It's such a nice day. We're going to lay out on the beach and relax!