I am loafing around the house and acting like a bum today. It's rainy and classes are over so I'm doing nothing. Molly and Amanda are at their parent's houses and Natalie is on her way to Florida. I have the place to myself. It's so relaxing.

I spent the last hour surfing the web for ideas for Josh's birthday present and graduation present. I have no idea what to get him this year. All I know is that it has to be special.

He's in New York today working on a demo. He's stayed in contact with the guy from Nashville and they are still interested in working with him. It's exciting but scary at the same time. I want him to live out his dreams, but I also don't want him to move away and forget about me. It's silly, I know, to be thinking that way. I know that what we share is too special for him to just forget about me. Still, I get worried from time to time.

I read Nat's blog today. It looks like Kelly and Jason are over again and she still has a thing for Josh. At least she's one girl that I don't have to worry about. Josh is disgusted by her.

Well, back to my online shopping...