I'm recovering from a nasty stomach flu. It was horrible. I could barely get out of bed for a few days.

I've been emailing Josh. It kind of feels like it did when he was in England. I just have to keep reminding myself that we are not together and he's not coming back. I want to keep in touch with him, but I'm afraid it's just going to prolong the hurt. And yet I can't bring myself to let him go. How could I let him go?

It's weird being back at school. I feel like so much has changed since last spring. I don't feel like the same person. I just want to finish school so that I can get on with my life. I just feel more grown up than everyone else. I guess the past few months have really changed me.