I spent the day shopping for dance wear. I also bought two new pairs of ballroom shoes. It kept me busy as I get ready for the semester to start. I just can't believe I have three more weeks before classes start. I'm getting crazy. I don't know what to do with myself.

Things are feeling out of sorts. I spent most of Saturday with Mark and that caused some problems with Josh. He said he understood why I did it but he didn't like it. I understand why he didn't like it but I had to do it. It was Josh's last day here before heading back to California so I get it, but I care about Mark and I had to be there for him.

There's also a little bit of a back story that I didn't post about. While I was in LA a girl stopped by Josh's apartment to see him when he was at work. He said she was a friend of Keith's from New York who had just moved to LA. He was helping her out by showing her around and introducing her to some people. So when he said he was a little uncomfortable with me being there for another guy that he doesn't know, I kind of threw Amber back in his face. (That's her name, by the way.) He didn't really appreciate that so things have been tense.

I'm thinking of maybe flying back to LA to spend a few days with him. Tomorrow is the funeral for Mark's father and then I'm free until the 25th so I might as well. It's bad enough that there is geographical distance between us. I don't want there to be emotional distance as well. That just leads to trouble.