MORE SNOW!!! I can't believe we could possibly be getting more snow. It's just crazy. This winter has been crazy. I decided that I'm going to spend tomorrow making cookies and chili with Aunt Lu if we get snowed in. I kind of like the idea of being stuck at home for a day. It might be nice to loaf around the house and relax a bit.

My weekends have been busy and I could use some down time. Between working at the dance studio, taking dance lessons in New York and classes in New Jersey I'm all over the map. I feel like I'm constantly on the run, but I wouldn't change it. I have learned so much this semester. I'm learning how to run a business and my dancing in just a few weeks has improved so much. I feel like the classes in New York are helping me reach a whole new level. It's not easy but it's worth it. I can't wait to incorporate my new skills into the competition this summer!

I just got back from lunch with JD. We talked about the dance competition this summer. He's got some good ideas to spice things up and wanted my input before he takes the ideas to Mona. I think they're great and I'm sure Mona will be on board. She told me that she thinks I should run and All Star competition next year and JD's ideas fit in nicely with setting that up.

I had this dream last night that I had choreographed another dance to "Billie Jean" and it was amazing. I know I did the dance for Alex back in high school but this was a real Cha Cha and I would love to do it this summer. I just hope to have a good enough partner since this will probably be the last summer I can compete.

I got an email from Jennifer earlier. Her new friends - the neighbors we cooked for last week - want us to go out with them Saturday night. I'm not really looking for romance but Jen is so I told her I'd go with her.

The end of her email said, "P.S. - I talked to Josh last night. Do you want to know what's going on with him?" I told her no. I need to maintain distance. Besides, he's not getting in touch with me. It's better this way. The less I know, the easier it is to pretend there's not still a strong connection there.

Crazy winter weather here! I got snowed in last week up in New York. I went to my dance class Tuesday night and the weather sounded hazardous so I decided to stay over at Jennifer's apartment in Brooklyn. Well, I ended up staying there until Friday afternoon. We made the most of it. We baked cookies and watched movies. Jennifer is newly single so we made a big lasagna on Wednesday night and invited her cute neighbors over for dinner. I don't know if Jen is interested in either of them, but we had a great time.

On Friday I made my way home. Natalie and Jason met me at the train station and helped me clear all the snow off my car. Jason tried to talk to me about Josh but I told him that it's not a topic for discussion. The best thing for me is a clean break, and it's been working. I'm not sitting around feeling bad about things. Even on Valentine's Day I wasn't sitting around thinking about him.

I've been spending a lot of time with Mark, but we're in agreement that it's just a friendship. He's dealing with a loss and I'm recovering from a breakup. There's no room for romance right now and that's fine. I just like being with him. He has no connection to Josh and I feel alive when I'm with him. He's kind of like my Jacob. I just read "New Moon" and while I'm not depressed like Bella was, I can relate to how hurt she was. When I see Mark I feel better. It feels like a weight is lifted. And I think I help him too. I know what he's going through and I constantly reassure him that it's normal.

So that's life in a nutshell. Today I'm back at the dance studio. It's been a quiet day. I guess people are doing other things since it's President's Day.

I know it's been awhile. I've been getting used to my new schedule. I'm doing my internship at the dance studio and taking dance classes in New York with JD. This new schedule is pretty crazy but I'm enjoying it. It's keeping me busy so I'm not sitting around feeling bad about things with Josh.

I've been spending time with Mark. I thought I was just trying to help him cope with the loss of his father, but I've found it to be very therapeutic for me as well. There is finally someone who knows what I was going through, and talking to him about it has really helped me a lot.

I've pretty much moved back in with Aunt Lu. I'm spending the majority of my time in Pennsylvania now so it makes sense. JD and I drive back from the train station together after our dance lessons so there's no need for me to stay in New Jersey. It's kind of nice being with Aunt Lu again. She makes dinner every night and I don't have to worry about her being lonely. I still feel sad occasionally when I look out the window at Josh's old room, but I remind myself that he's not there anymore and that time is in the past. I can't keep wasting my time on it.

Well, that's all for now. I will try to get back to posting more regularly.