I am a college grad. Wow, it's so weird. No more school. Really weird!

I'm going out to dinner tonight with my family and then tomorrow night is the graduation party.

Tomorrow is also Josh's birthday. I want to get him a present since he's celebrating his birthday at my graduation party, but I have no idea what to get. What do you get an ex-boyfriend? It can't be too personal because we're not together, but it also can't be generic. We've been through too much for that. I wish I had thought about this sooner so that I'd have more time. Ugh. I have to buy something by tomorrow.

I guess even though I'm a college grad not much as changed, huh? Still thinking about Josh...even after all these years. I wonder if I will ever get over him. Is Mark right? Do you always love your first love? Or does that have nothing to do with it? Is it that I just happened to fall in love with my perfect match right from the start and now no one else can compare? Or maybe I'm mentally ill and this is an obsession. Nah, I have my problems like everyone else but I don't think I've gone off the deep end.

I'm not going to worry about this anymore. Whatever will be will be. I have to just let things go and live my life. If Josh is my perfect match we will be, and if he's not, I'll fall in love with someone else and this won't be a problem. Maybe I just need to let life play out a little and have faith that things will work out. Maybe not according to my timeline, and maybe not in the way I think they should, but I do have faith that things will work out.