I'm kind of bummed today. Wendy is doing her best to move in on Josh and I'm beginning to think he might like her! I try to ignore it but I can't help but watching him all the time to see if she's with him, and when she is I have to force myself to look away. It's too painful.

It seems like misery is all around these days. Lindsay is still sitting on the couch in front of the TV giving everyone one word answers. I know that she's going throw hell, and I shouldn't put a time table on her grieving, but I wish she would get up and get out. It's time to face the world again.

I have to stay late tomorrow night to close down the swim club. It's so annoying because it means I'll have to leave at 7:00 when the snack bar closes and then return at 9:00 to close!

Molly told me that she's running the bachelor auction. Apparently they auction off dates with the single male staff members. If you bid you go on a dinner cruise from Philadelphia to New York. It sounds so great, but I don't have much extra money to spend since I'm saving to go on vacation with Nat. But the thought of going on a dinner cruise with Josh is so enticing... I can see us slow dancing and standing on the deck looking at the stars and the New York skyline...Maybe I should stop thinking about it.

What am I going to do if he goes out with Wendy? I'll be crushed! What if she bids on him!?!? I need to find a way to just forget about him! I need to forget him. This thing I have for him has been trouble since day one!

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