Yesterday I gave you the drama of the camping trip...today I give you the drama of Molly and Alex.

Remember on Friends when Rachel found out that Ross was in love with her? She decided to tell him but found out he had a new girlfriend? Well, the same exact thing happened with Molly and Alex.

Molly was free of Greg and decided that she wanted Alex. On Monday we got to school and she was all ready to tell him how she feels. One problem: Becky.

Alex and Becky met on their trip to Montreal. She's a sophomore who happens to be a year ahead in her French studies so she was able to go on the trip. They hit it off and ooh la la, it wuz eh luv thing!

Molly's completely devastated now...or at least she acts that way. I find it hard to believe that she's really devastated since she never batted an eye at Alex before last week, but she's acting that way. She hates this poor Becky girl with a passion, but it doesn't matter. Alex is taken with her and I don't think he'll drop her for Molly.

Tomorrow night is Molly's party. I can't wait because I know that Josh will be there! I can't wait to see those amazing blue eyes...

I know it's been a while and I've got a lot to report.

The weekend was awesome. I spent a lot of time with Josh!!!

On Friday night we got to the camp ground. We put up our tents. I shared a tent with Jen and Lindsay. Molly wanted to share her tent with Greg...uggghh.

We built a fire and I was getting ticked off because one of the girls from NY (her name was Amy) was hanging on Josh. Why does that always happen? So I decided to sleep, only I couldn't sleep. Jennifer and Lindsay came into the tent and were talking. After tossing and turning I got up to go to the bathroom and found Josh sitting by himself by the fire. Perfect!

I walked over and sat down with him. He said he was sitting there because he wanted to watch the fire burn out, but he looked deep in thought. I wanted to get information from him about his feelings towards Amy so I teased him that she had taken a liking to him. He didn't seem phased so I took that as a good sign.

We talked for a long time and then the fire burned out. I said something along the lines of, "well, the fire's out...now what?" He gave me a flirty look and said, "I'm sure we can think of something to do." I'm sure he was coming on to me but Lauren walked out at that moment. It's like I'm doomed when it comes to Josh because the minute it seems like something might happen, someone or something interupts us.

Lauren had to go to the bathroom and was too scared to go alone. Josh and I walked her to the restrooms. When we got back to our tents Josh said that it was late and that we should go to sleep but "we'll have to finish our conversation later."

The next morning I was the last one up. Everyone was fixing breakfast and I saw Molly and Josh standing away from everyone else. Molly looked upset so I went to see how she was. Apparently things weren't going well with Greg.

Molly left for a minute and Josh and I were standing there talking about Molly and we didn't know she had come back. Josh was saying that she should dump Greg and go out with Alex. He was going on and on about how Alex really likes her and how much better he would be for her. Well, Molly heard the whole thing! I thought Josh was going to have a heart attack - he totally didn't mean for her to hear.

After breakfast we went hiking. Molly and I were walking at the back of the crowd. She was obsessing over her new information about Alex liking her. I kept trying to shut her up. I didn't think Greg would appreciate the conversation and I didn't want it getting back to Alex that Molly knew he likes her.

I kept watching Josh as we were hiking. He was in the very front with Amy and well, my ability to control my emotions had gone out to lunch because I was so jealous. I hate to admit it, but I was really ticked off that she was encroaching on my time with him.

Jennifer started feeling sick so we stopped for lunch a little early. The place had an awesome view. I was sitting with Jennifer and Lindsay and Josh was showing Amy the view. My emotions were really running high at this point. I got up and walked over to them. Amy must have sensed that I was mad because she quickly left.

I started giving Josh a hard time about Amy. He snapped back at me, "I told you last night that I wasn't interested in her! What business is it of yours anyway?" I gave him a look and just told him that he was right. What else could I say? He was right.

I turned away from him to look out at the view and he walked over to me and told me he didn't know why we were fighting. I said "me neither" and then I started to lose my footing or the ground under me wasn't stable because I started to slip. Thank God he had walked over to me because I think I would have been really hurt if he hadn't been standing there and hadn't grabbed me before I could fall down.

It's not like I would have fallen off a cliff or anything, but it scared the you-know-what out of me. Everyone ran over to me to make sure I was okay, and I was, but I was shaken. Josh told them to go back to eating their lunch so that he could calm me down a little. I told him I was sorry for bothering him about Amy and he said it was okay. He told me that I had to stay close to him the rest of the day so that he could make sure nothing else happened to me.

We were getting ready to head out again when Lindsay said that she thought we should head back. Jennifer looked absolutely miserable so we cut the hike short and went back to camp. By the time we got there Jennifer was burning up and Josh wanted to take her to the hospital. Being Jennifer, she refused to go. Finally Josh gave Lindsay the keys to his car and told her to take Jennifer to a hotel, and if things got worse to go to the hospital.

After they left Molly, Kelly and I talked more about Alex. Molly told me she wanted to see if there could be something between her. I told her to make sure of how she feels before talking to Alex. I don't want him getting hurt. She also told me that she was going to break up with Greg. I told her that she couldn't do that until the trip was over. I did not want to deal with their breakup. Our trip had already been too dramatic. Thankfully, Kelly agreed with me.

We had another camp fire that night and Amy wasn't hanging on Josh so I felt better about things. He was playing his guitar and we were all singing along. He started playing "With You" and insisted that I sing it. It was fun.

We made smores and told stories. It was a good time but I was getting nervous about sleeping alone in my tent in the middle of the woods. Everyone was starting to go to sleep and I just sat there, not wanting to go. Josh knew what was bothering me and asked if I wanted him to join me in the tent! I told him I wasn't that type of girl, and he laughed and said he wasn't suggesting anything "tawdry." I told him that it would be fine for him to sleep in my tent.

We got in our sleeping bags and we talked for what seemed like hours, but it couldn't have been too long because Molly showed up with her sleeping bag and joined us in the tent. She had broken up with Greg and didn't want to share a tent with him.

The next day we packed up and waited for Lindsay and Jennifer to get back with Josh's car. Jen was feeling better but not great. She said having a bed, heat and running water helped a lot.

I drove back with Jennifer, Lindsay and Josh. Now, I know you're going to think I'm nuts but this actually worked out well...Lindsay was nominated to the Homecoming Court and needed an escort. I'm working at the dance so I won't have time for a date. I fixed it so that Josh would take her. Lindsay has no interest in Josh so I don't have to worry about that, and this way Josh will get to see me all gussied up.

So that was the weekend. Josh and I defintely got closer this weekend. He took me out driving on Tuesday and we're going to go out driving again on Saturday.

Not much going on this week...just waiting for the weekend to come. I'm so excited for the chance to spend some time with Josh...!

Molly is bringing Greg with her. The only problem is that they haven't been getting along that well so we'll see what happens. I wish she would dump Greg and go out with Alex. Unfortunately, he won't be with us this weekend because he has a trip to Montreal for his French class.

Lindsay and Jennifer are coming though, along with Kelly and Jason, Lauren and one of her friends, Josh and three of his friends from NY. I hope that Molly and Jennifer don't kill each other. Things between them seem to have cooled down a bit though. I'm more worried about Molly and Greg. They are just not right for each other. She only likes him because he's hot. He only likes her because she's popular. After you get past the superficial common ground there's nothing left.

Then there's me and Josh. We have tons of common ground, the chemistry is enough to knock me out, and we're not together. It's just not right. I can't imagine that he doesn't feel it when we're together - it's like there's extra energy floating around us. I feel so alive and aware of everything and yet he's the only thing I notice. Is that weird?

Molly and I went to Starbucks last night and she gave me a lot of insight into Josh Anderson. She told me (which I already knew) that a lot of girls like him. She said that before he dated Kelly, he dated a lot of girls. Molly says that Kelly's the one that got him to settle down and it broke his heart when she left him to date his best friend, Jason. (I'm still amazed that Josh forgave Jason and that they're still friends!) Molly said that even though he dated a lot, he was never a "player" type of guy. He just went out with the girls who liked him, and he just doesn't do that anymore. Molly said whenever he dates someone she turns out to be horrible - like Wendy from this summer. She said he's probably scared and is waiting for a special girl.

He deserves a special girl. He's the most truly genuine person I've ever met. I think that's why so many girls like him. He makes everyone he comes in contact with feel special. I just wish that I could be the really special girl who makes him feel special.

I'm so excited for this weekend. I get to spend the whole entire weekend with Josh! Yippie!

I saw him on Saturday when I was out walking Barkley. He pretended to be scared and said he didn't want to get sprayed by a skunk again. He's so cute! He did come over and talk to me. He sounds excited about our camping trip. I can't wait!

One week from now and I'll be headed up state for a weekend of camping! I can't wait. I'll get to see Josh all weekend long! :) Yippie.

Tonight I'm going to the football game. I'm hoping that Josh will be there. Although, I'm afraid of him seeing Nancy again. I don't understand why there are always so many girls after him...well, I can see why they like him so much but I wish they'd go away. I want him all for myself. Now if I could just get him to want me...!

Uncle Bill, Aunt Linda, Lindsay and Brett are going away this weekend and leaving Barkley (their dog) with me and Aunt Lu. I told Aunt Lu he's all her responsibility. I don't need any more run-ins with a skunk. ;)

It's been a few days...things have been really hectic with choir, driving lessons, school, work and teaching Alex how to dance. He's slowly starting to catch on though. He's so proud of himself too - it's really cute!

Uncle Bill took me out for a driving lesson on Tuesday. He was impressed with how easily I was picking it up. He told me that Lindsay took a long time to learn.

Josh and I are going out tonight to shop for camping gear. I can't wait. I haven't seen him all week.

So we find out tomorrow who has been nominated for the Homecoming Court. Everyone is saying that Lindsay got nominated. She's not real happy about it though. She hasn't thought about a date to the dance yet and I don't think she wants one. I'm not even sure that she wants to go. She'll have to if she gets nominated.

Oops, must have saved this as a draft instead of posting it...

Saturday night was great. Molly, Greg, Alex and I met up with Josh, his friend Keith, and Kelly and Jason. The hayride was so much fun. We were sitting on the ride and Josh leaned over towards me and whispered, "Are you scared yet?" I joked that I was terrified and he put his arm around me and said, "I'll protect you." It was really cute. :)

After the hayride we roasted marshmallows in the fire and made smores. Kelly and Jason went back to Princeton and Molly and Greg wanted to be alone so Josh, Keith, Alex and I went to Nifty Fifties. I went there after Lauren's birthday party. They have awesome milkshakes. Josh then took us home.

I'm hoping that I'll get to see him this week. He said we'd try to find a time to go sleeping bag shopping.

I showed Josh my driver's permit last night (he didn't get home until late on Wednesday so I didn't see him). Mrs. Anderson gave me a ride home from work yesterday and Josh came out to see me. He asked me if I wanted to go for a spin - with him driving of course - but I told him that I had to go to the student council meeting so he offered to pick me up afterwards.

So at the end of the meeting Josh walks in and sits down in the back of the room. When the meeting was over Molly and I had to talk to Mr. Keating about the Junior Class Homecoming Float for the parade. Well, as we're talking to him I see three girls flock over to Josh. They latched on to him like a rottweiler with a pot roast!

After we finished talking to Mr. Keating, Joe Baker, the Junior Class President (Molly is VP) came over to us to talk about the float. The guy is so sleazy. He always makes statements about how he's looking forward to spending alone time with us. Yuck. Luckily Josh went over to talk to Mr. Keating so he wasn't surrounded by girls.

As Josh and I were leaving, this girl, Nancy, walks over and hands Josh her phone number! I couldn't believe it! What if Josh and I were actually together? Have these girls no shame? I told him he was popular and he just rolled his eyes. He didn't seem to have any interest in Nancy, but still...

Before we left, Alicia (the girl who has the crush on Alex) came over to me to talk about the homecoming dance. She wants to volunteer which is great, but I feel so bad for the girl. She's so shy. She could barely get the words out. I think it might be because she knows that I'm friends with Alex.

When we finally got out of there Josh gave me a mini lesson on the car controls and then drove me home. He said he talked to his friend and they will be joining us on Saturday night! Yippie! :)

I can't wait...tomorrow can't come quick enough. I love spending time with him. Every time we're together I know more and more that we are meant to really be together. There's just a little extra electricity in the air when we're together. I can already see it so clearly. I know that he's the one. Now I just have to get him to see it too...

I have a driver's permit! The State of Pennsylvania will allow me to learn to drive! Yippie! I can't wait until Josh gets home so that I can tell him the good news!

Speaking of Josh, I finally saw him yesterday! F-i-n-a-l-l-y!

Yesterday after work I was outside on the back patio teaching Alex the Cha Cha when Josh walked over. He said he had been watching us from his window and wondered what we were doing. Alex explained about the talent show act and told him that he was learning to dance. Josh looked at me and said, "You're a brave woman, Nicole Bradford." It was really cute the way he said it. Alex asked him to stay and watch so that he could get some feedback so Josh actually hung around for a while!

After our dance lesson I walked out front with Alex and Josh. I asked them if they wanted to do a haunted hayride on Saturday night. Molly and I had been planning it, and she was going to ask Josh but since he was there I figured I'd talk to him about it. He said that he'd like to go but his friend from NY might be visiting him. He'd have to find out if his friend would want to go. All I have to say is: His friend had better want to go!

We were also talking about the camping trip - Alex can't go! :( Anyway, Alex left and Josh and I were still talking. I told him that I don't have any camping gear. He said he had a tent that I could use but I'd have to get a sleeping bag. I asked him if he'd go with me to buy one and he said yes!

At that point Aunt Lu walked out and told me to come in for dinner so that was the end of our conversation. I'm just so glad that I finally saw him!

No Josh at the library last night. Maybe I should just forget about him. I don't know. It's so annoying. Why did I have to fall so hard for a guy that I obviously can't have? I mean, he lives next door, I can see his bedroom window from mine, and yet I never see him! You'd think that eventually I'd catch a glimpse of him, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :(

Okay, I'm sorry I'm pouting, but it's so frustrating. How long am I going to have to wait until I see him again? The anticipation is killing me!!! Boy do I have it bad.

At least I'm taking my driver's permit test tomorrow. That will give me an excuse to see him. I can stop by his house and show off my paper work. I can't wait to start driving so that my friends don't have to cart me around.

I think I can guilt trip my parents into getting me a car, after all, they did ship me over a thousand miles away. I think I deserve something for being deserted by them. Not to mention the years of dealing with an alcoholic father - who still hasn't cleaned up is act, I might add. I'm thinking a jaguar convertible...Doubt it will happen but a girl can dream, right? Probably, I'll end up having to borrow Aunt Lu's car. I'll look like an old lady driving around.

Well, I've got to eat some lunch before the period is over. More to come...

I spent yesterday working with Alex on his dance moves. I should get a medal for the patience I displayed. He wants to do his act to "Billie Jean" because he wants to do an 80's theme since last year he did a 70's theme. So, okay, that's great, but Michael Jackson doesn't have the best reputation right now. I'm not sure I would have picked one of his songs.

Anyway, "Billie Jean" is a Cha Cha so I thought that we could incorporate the Cha Cha into the choreography. I started by teaching Alex the basic Cha Cha step. It took almost all afternoon, and he told me that he is working on getting back up dancers which means I'm going to have to teach them too. I think I've gotten myself into more than I expected. :(

I also didn't see Josh this weekend. That means it's been over and week and I'm going through withdraw symptoms. I need a Josh fix! I have to go to the library tonight to study for a test that I have tomorrow. I'm hoping that maybe he'll be there.

Tomorrow night Alex is coming over to learn more Cha Cha. I'm having my mom send me an instructional video that he can do at home. She's a dance teacher in FL so she has access to all of that stuff.

I just got home from work. It was a pretty uneventful day. Mrs. Anderson told me that Josh is staying in New York tonight. :( So much for trying to bump into him.

It drives me crazy. I want to see him so badly that I'm practically jumping all over the place. People must think I'm nuts. I can't help it, the anticipation of seeing him makes me crazy. I was really hoping that I'd run into him tonight and now I know there's no chance.

Plans for the night include dinner with Lindsay, Jennifer and Alex. I'm not sure what we're doing after that.

Molly has a date with Greg tonight but I'm supposed to hang out with her tomorrow. She's going to have a Halloween party and she wants me to help her plan it.

I just hope that I get to see Josh at some point this weekend...grrr... I wonder what he's doing in New York. I hope he doesn't have a date...grrr!!!! Okay, now I'm getting myself upset. I should just stop and get ready for dinner.