No Josh at the library last night. Maybe I should just forget about him. I don't know. It's so annoying. Why did I have to fall so hard for a guy that I obviously can't have? I mean, he lives next door, I can see his bedroom window from mine, and yet I never see him! You'd think that eventually I'd catch a glimpse of him, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! :(

Okay, I'm sorry I'm pouting, but it's so frustrating. How long am I going to have to wait until I see him again? The anticipation is killing me!!! Boy do I have it bad.

At least I'm taking my driver's permit test tomorrow. That will give me an excuse to see him. I can stop by his house and show off my paper work. I can't wait to start driving so that my friends don't have to cart me around.

I think I can guilt trip my parents into getting me a car, after all, they did ship me over a thousand miles away. I think I deserve something for being deserted by them. Not to mention the years of dealing with an alcoholic father - who still hasn't cleaned up is act, I might add. I'm thinking a jaguar convertible...Doubt it will happen but a girl can dream, right? Probably, I'll end up having to borrow Aunt Lu's car. I'll look like an old lady driving around.

Well, I've got to eat some lunch before the period is over. More to come...