I'm taking a break from unpacking and packing. I'm unpacking from school and also trying to pack for my road trip. Who knew packing could be so exhausting? My room at Aunt Lu's is a pretty good size but right now it's wall to wall boxes and stuff. I want to get it cleaned up now because I don't want to return from my trip to find that the place is a disaster area!

So I've been doing a little snooping...I think Josh is home. I noticed his car has moved a few times today and when he's in New York it just sits in the same spot. It's driving me crazy. Part of me wants to go see him, but the other part of me knows that I could be setting myself up for more heartache if I do. Besides, my car is parked on the street so if he's home, he knows I'm here. He could just as easily come see me.

Weird, as I was writing about Josh, Lauren called and asked if I wanted to meet at Starbucks tonight. I should probably pick up something for Josh's birthday so that she can pass it along for me. But that means I need to figure out what to get him. It has to give off the right vibe. I don't want something that says, "I still love you and desperately need you," but I don't want something that says, "You don't mean anything to me." I have no idea what to get.

Well, I better get back to packing or I'll sit here obsessing about this all day...