It's been an interesting couple of days. I'm so confused right now.

Friday night was my date with Patrick. We had a really good time. We went to dinner and played miniature golf. Afterwards we got ice cream and walked around town. It was a really great night. When we got back to my house I could tell he wanted to kiss me goodnight. I wanted him too, but I felt really weird about kissing him outside where Josh or his family could see us. It just felt weird so I kind of ran into the house before he could make a move.

Saturday was my first day of work at the swim club. I was nervous when I got there because it was the first time I was going to see Josh. When I walked into the office I saw Henry and Laura there. Seeing Laura was harder than seeing Josh since I know she's so into him. I was saying hello to Henry when Josh walked in. I was so nervous my hands were shaking.

He said hi to me and then we heard a scream from outside and two boys came running through the door. One was screaming, "Jump in the pool! Jump in the pool!" Suddenly the scent of skunk hit us and Josh put his arms out and blocked both kids. One of them had been sprayed. Josh carried him outside and told Laura to find the parents. Laura didn't look pleased but did as she was told.

Henry and I followed Josh outside and talked to the little boy who was crying. It's strange to see a skunk out and about in the middle of the day so we wanted to know where he saw it. The last thing we need is a rabid skunk running around on the playground.

After we talked to the boy's mother about the skunk Josh left to go home and shower since he also smelt like skunk. When he returned, I was still nervous, but we started talking about skunks and our past history with skunks and soon we were laughing hysterically. It really helped to break the ice.

On Sunday I was feeling much better about work. I got there feeling more confident about working with Josh, but it turned out that he had the day off so I didn't see him anyway. That night I went to a barbecue at Amanda's house. It was nice catching up with her. I showed her my pictures from the road trip and gave her all the details about things with Patrick. She told me all about her new boyfriend. It was a good time.

On Monday I was working with Josh again. He spent most of the day working outside by the pool so I didn't have to sit with him all day. In the afternoon he sat in the office and Laura kept coming in to talk to him. It was kind of annoying. No, it was very annoying. Then his co-star from "West Side Story" stopped by to see him. They made plans to work on their lines that night and for some reason that made me feel really uncomfortable.

That night I met up with Patrick for dinner. When he walked me to the door I decided I'd let him kiss me. I figured if Josh was going to have girls stopping by and hanging all over him all day, I shouldn't feel bad if he sees me kiss the new guy in my life.

So this week at work has been uneventful. Josh and I are on opposite schedules. He works early in the day and I work late day. Henry has us working around Josh's rehearsal schedule right now. I'm glad because it means I don't have to deal with Josh every day. It's just too complicated for me.

To make matters worse, all of my friends are going to see Josh and Alex sing with their doo-wop group tomorrow night at Angelo's. They are dragging me along. I want to support Alex, but it's going to be hard to sit there and watch Josh perform.

And the worst part of all of this is that I have now rambled on and on about Josh. I should be writing about Patrick and how great he is. He's smart, funny and incredibly good looking. He has been so good to me and there were sparks flying during our road trip, but now I'm home and Josh is back on the radar screen and he's the star of this blog again! It's so completely frustrating! Grrr....