I am truly in panic mode. I don’t know why I’m so nervous about Josh coming home. Natalie told me I’m acting like a nut. Molly said, “Josh has been in love with you for years. Chill out.” And Amanda is being the good friend listening to me freak out, but mostly because I listened to her last week and helped her through the ex-boyfriend drama. Maybe I am being crazy, but isn’t it normal to be a little crazy when the one thing you really want is so close and you don’t want to do anything to mess it up?

Molly keeps reminding me that I have done a lot of stupid things (gotta love it when your friends remind you of all the stupid things you’ve done) and that Josh doesn’t seem to care. She even said she thinks he likes it and sees it as part of my charm. Hmm…that could be pushing it a little bit. I would say that he’s more amused by the stupid things I do than actually liking that I do stupid things. The worst of it is that in other parts of my life I don’t act idiotic, but my foolish tendencies come out in spades whenever Josh is around.

I just have to be positive. I have to expect the best and have faith that it will be a good weekend. Amanda and I went to the mall this afternoon after class. I bought a new green sweater to wear the day that he picks me up at the airport. The color makes my eyes pop. And I’m going to go with my mom to get my hair cut at our favorite salon in Florida so I should look pretty good when I see him.

I’m so nervous but I also can’t wait! Only 9 days now!