My friends are all out in the other room watching some stupid movie. I couldn't watch anymore of it. I'm not into stupid humor.
Kelly's cabin is sweet. We're having a good time so far. Lauren convinced her mother to let her join us. I guess Mrs. Anderson figured out that Josh would keep an eye on her. She was right, he's been playing chaperon, but Lauren has been on good behavior. She told me last night that she wants to take things slowly with Alex. I'm proud of her because a week ago she was ready to throw herself at him.
Natalie twisted her ankle this afternoon. I was feeling bad for her but Jason and Patrick have been waiting on her all night. I think she's enjoying it.
Josh has been pretty cool about Patrick being here. The other night he was kind of upset about it but we talked, and I explained to him that it was over for me and Patrick the moment Josh and I came face-to-face last May. I told him that I have waited such a long time for him to be here, and I don't want anything or anyone to ruin what we have.
Besides, if Patrick had really wanted me he wouldn't have walked away just because Josh asked him to. And if I had really wanted Patrick, I wouldn't have spent the past four months pining away helplessly for Josh. Don't get me wrong - Patrick is a really great guy, but he is no Josh Anderson.
Oh, and Josh has me under such a spell. Every look we share, and every time he touches me, I become totally weak. It's the whole nine yards: weak knees, pounding heart, sweaty palms, and feeling warm all over. And my helpless heart can't resist those blue eyes and charming smile of his. It would be absolutely mortifying if he wasn't also in this state that I'm in. I know these feelings of "new love" don't last forever so I'm trying to savor every moment and keep it close to my heart because I'm holding on to him this time. I'm not letting him go again.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Friday, December 28, 2007
Josh and I went to Longwood Gardens last night. It was kind of a hike from where we live, but it was so worth it. It was gorgeous there - the place was all lit up with Christmas lights. It was really romantic to walk around there. When Josh first got home and there were people around us constantly I was kind of annoyed because I wanted him to myself, but I think it worked out. It forced us to take things slowly and I think it's more romantic that way.
Molly's party was two nights ago and things kind of worked out in my favor - not that I planned it that way. Josh got held up at home with the guy they hired to tune the piano so I headed over to the party by myself. When I got there I ran into Patrick. I was excited to hear how things were going for him in Florida. It was completely innocent, but when I saw Josh walk in I could tell he wasn't happy. He walked over and shook Patrick's hand and was polite but I could see that he was uncomfortable.
After the party we went back to my house and he said, "I think I finally get it." I didn't know what he was talking about but he continued with, "Is that how you feel when you see me talking to Laura and Tanya?" I smiled at him. He really did get it. Although, Tanya doesn't really bothered me. The problem is Laura because she was manipulative and downright mean. He told me that he's not friends with her anymore and he just puts up with her because of mutual friends - and then he said he wouldn't even do that if it bothers me.
It was sweet. But I found out this morning from Molly that Patrick is going to Kelly's cabin this weekend. I hope this doesn't mess things up for me and Josh. I talked to Josh after I got off the phone with Molly and he didn't sound too happy about it. He said it was "an uncomfortable situation." It could be worse - he could be acting like a big baby - but I wanted to remind him that I have had to put up with his "fan club" for years. Besides, if anyone should be uncomfortable, it should be Patrick. He's the one that got caught up in the middle of our summer drama. Oh, well.
Natalie called me this morning too. I swear, it's only 11 a.m. and it's been a high drama morning. She asked me to pick her up at the airport this afternoon. Apparently she called Andy last night and told him that she doesn't want him to come to the cabin this weekend. She's decided that she's just not that in to him. So he's not picking her up at the airport as planned.
The weekend hasn't even started and already there's stories to tell. I'll try to post a blog or two while we're there. I have a feeling it's going to be an interesting few days.
Molly's party was two nights ago and things kind of worked out in my favor - not that I planned it that way. Josh got held up at home with the guy they hired to tune the piano so I headed over to the party by myself. When I got there I ran into Patrick. I was excited to hear how things were going for him in Florida. It was completely innocent, but when I saw Josh walk in I could tell he wasn't happy. He walked over and shook Patrick's hand and was polite but I could see that he was uncomfortable.
After the party we went back to my house and he said, "I think I finally get it." I didn't know what he was talking about but he continued with, "Is that how you feel when you see me talking to Laura and Tanya?" I smiled at him. He really did get it. Although, Tanya doesn't really bothered me. The problem is Laura because she was manipulative and downright mean. He told me that he's not friends with her anymore and he just puts up with her because of mutual friends - and then he said he wouldn't even do that if it bothers me.
It was sweet. But I found out this morning from Molly that Patrick is going to Kelly's cabin this weekend. I hope this doesn't mess things up for me and Josh. I talked to Josh after I got off the phone with Molly and he didn't sound too happy about it. He said it was "an uncomfortable situation." It could be worse - he could be acting like a big baby - but I wanted to remind him that I have had to put up with his "fan club" for years. Besides, if anyone should be uncomfortable, it should be Patrick. He's the one that got caught up in the middle of our summer drama. Oh, well.
Natalie called me this morning too. I swear, it's only 11 a.m. and it's been a high drama morning. She asked me to pick her up at the airport this afternoon. Apparently she called Andy last night and told him that she doesn't want him to come to the cabin this weekend. She's decided that she's just not that in to him. So he's not picking her up at the airport as planned.
The weekend hasn't even started and already there's stories to tell. I'll try to post a blog or two while we're there. I have a feeling it's going to be an interesting few days.
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
The Anderson’s house was packed on Christmas Eve. There were family members and people that Mr. and Mrs. Anderson work with, but there were also tons of people I knew too! Josh had invited Mona and Angelo (who I have a feeling are more than friends these days!), a bunch of the dancers from our dancing competition, the doo-wop guys and some of the restaurant employees, and people from his play this summer.
Josh was busy talking to his dad’s friend when I got there so I walked around and talked to people. It was fun seeing so many people that I haven’t seen in a few months.
Molly and Adam showed up, and then our friends started to trickle in. Jennifer brought Lindsay, Laura and Tanya with her. I must have had a lot of Christmas spirit because Laura and Tanya’s presence didn’t bother me. Jason and Kelly showed up and then Alex arrived with his parents. Josh finally pulled himself away from his parents’ friends to hang out with us. He sat down on the couch next to me and whispered, “I’m sorry about that.” I knew he was and I wasn’t mad but I had spent the whole weekend waiting to really spend time with him and it was starting to feel like it would never happen.
Adam was telling us stories about his new job but all I could think about was how charged the small space between Josh and me was. And then Josh took my hand and I could feel the energy flowing between us. It amazes me that just the touch of his hand can have such a profound effect on me. I just sat there watching his thumb move across my hand as if to say, “I’m here with you now.”
Then it was Christmas carol time: Josh at the piano and everyone gathered around him. He and his dad did their annual rendition of “We Wish You The Merriest.” Then he surprised us all by announcing that Lauren would be playing the rest of the Christmas songs. She looked so excited, and I’m not sure why he did it, but it obviously meant a lot to her that she got to play the piano this year. I was happy because Josh came and stood next to me and put his arm around me while we sang. Mona kept smiling at me from across the room. I can’t help but laugh when I think about it – she’s such a cheerleader for me.
After the Christmas carols Josh said, “Don’t we have a date?” I looked at him not sure what he was talking about. “Under the mistletoe,” he clarified and I laughed and told him that he was right. He took my hand and pulled me into the family room where the mistletoe was hanging. He said, “I’m sorry things have been off to a slow start with me being sick and people being around us constantly.” I told him that it was okay and he said, “I promise I’ll make it up to you.” Then he said, “At least it adds to the anticipation.” He’s got that right! Then he leaned in and kissed me, and it wasn’t quick or rushed. It was perfect. I wanted to stay there in that moment. All of the waiting was so worth it.
He stayed by my side the rest of the evening. We talked to some friends for a little while, but I was happiest as the party started to clear out. Josh and I sat together in the little glassed in room that the Anderson’s have in the back of their house. No one was in there with us so we finally got to talk. I told him how happy I was that he was finally home and that we were together. He smiled at me and said, “that makes two of us.”
I heard “Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas” playing in the background – and not the happy remade versions, but the real one: the sad version that Judy Garland sang. I told him that I had listened to it last Christmas and kept thinking about the line: “Next year all our troubles will be miles away.” And how badly I hoped that line was true. I told him that last Christmas was horrible. He agreed and told me that it was the worst Christmas of his life. He said that last Christmas Eve was miserable and that all he wanted to do was sit in his room and mope. He told me that his mother kept going upstairs and dragging him down to the party. It made my heart break all over again, and I told him how I spent the night in my parents’ guest room crying my eyes out to Aunt Lu.
He looked at me and said, “We are never going through that again. Ever. This is how Christmas should be spent – happy and together.” He didn’t have to convince me. Then he said something that surprised me. He said that we should make a promise that no matter what, we will always be together on Christmas. That wasn’t a hard promise to make. Sitting there, warm and happy, snuggled up close to him was much better than being down in Florida in that cold house crying my eyes out over a heart that wouldn’t stop breaking.
Everyone had left at that point and the rest of his family had gone to sleep. It was well past midnight so Josh told me that he wanted to give me my Christmas present. He said that it will be more special at night anyway. I couldn’t figure out what in the world it could be – but it was the coolest gift ever. It was a star projector. We took it down in his basement where it was really dark and turned it on. It projected the night sky on to the ceiling – little stars all over the place! He told me that I could look up the stars all the time now. I loved it, and I loved sitting there in the dark with him looking up at the “stars.” It was so romantic and so special because I could tell he had put a lot of thought into that gift.
On Christmas I spent the day at Uncle Bill and Aunt Linda’s house. We had a nice day. Brett got Guitar Hero and we spent half the day playing it. Aunt Lu thought we were all nuts and we should learn how to play a real guitar.
Last night I spent the evening at the Anderson’s. I had dessert with them and then we all watched the movie “Elf.” Josh had a few more presents for me – mostly stuff from England. He brought me back the most amazing soap. I know it sounds crazy but I love Woods of Windsor soap. Natalie’s mother always had it and I thought it was the nicest soap in the world. So Josh picked up some for me when he went to Windsor Castle. I was so excited!
So that was Christmas. Today I went out to lunch with Molly, Jennifer and Lindsay. Tonight is Molly’s family party. Josh and I are going over there, and then tomorrow he and I are going to spend the day together – a whole day, just the two of us.
That’s all for now. Merry Christmas!
Josh was busy talking to his dad’s friend when I got there so I walked around and talked to people. It was fun seeing so many people that I haven’t seen in a few months.
Molly and Adam showed up, and then our friends started to trickle in. Jennifer brought Lindsay, Laura and Tanya with her. I must have had a lot of Christmas spirit because Laura and Tanya’s presence didn’t bother me. Jason and Kelly showed up and then Alex arrived with his parents. Josh finally pulled himself away from his parents’ friends to hang out with us. He sat down on the couch next to me and whispered, “I’m sorry about that.” I knew he was and I wasn’t mad but I had spent the whole weekend waiting to really spend time with him and it was starting to feel like it would never happen.
Adam was telling us stories about his new job but all I could think about was how charged the small space between Josh and me was. And then Josh took my hand and I could feel the energy flowing between us. It amazes me that just the touch of his hand can have such a profound effect on me. I just sat there watching his thumb move across my hand as if to say, “I’m here with you now.”
Then it was Christmas carol time: Josh at the piano and everyone gathered around him. He and his dad did their annual rendition of “We Wish You The Merriest.” Then he surprised us all by announcing that Lauren would be playing the rest of the Christmas songs. She looked so excited, and I’m not sure why he did it, but it obviously meant a lot to her that she got to play the piano this year. I was happy because Josh came and stood next to me and put his arm around me while we sang. Mona kept smiling at me from across the room. I can’t help but laugh when I think about it – she’s such a cheerleader for me.
After the Christmas carols Josh said, “Don’t we have a date?” I looked at him not sure what he was talking about. “Under the mistletoe,” he clarified and I laughed and told him that he was right. He took my hand and pulled me into the family room where the mistletoe was hanging. He said, “I’m sorry things have been off to a slow start with me being sick and people being around us constantly.” I told him that it was okay and he said, “I promise I’ll make it up to you.” Then he said, “At least it adds to the anticipation.” He’s got that right! Then he leaned in and kissed me, and it wasn’t quick or rushed. It was perfect. I wanted to stay there in that moment. All of the waiting was so worth it.
He stayed by my side the rest of the evening. We talked to some friends for a little while, but I was happiest as the party started to clear out. Josh and I sat together in the little glassed in room that the Anderson’s have in the back of their house. No one was in there with us so we finally got to talk. I told him how happy I was that he was finally home and that we were together. He smiled at me and said, “that makes two of us.”
I heard “Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas” playing in the background – and not the happy remade versions, but the real one: the sad version that Judy Garland sang. I told him that I had listened to it last Christmas and kept thinking about the line: “Next year all our troubles will be miles away.” And how badly I hoped that line was true. I told him that last Christmas was horrible. He agreed and told me that it was the worst Christmas of his life. He said that last Christmas Eve was miserable and that all he wanted to do was sit in his room and mope. He told me that his mother kept going upstairs and dragging him down to the party. It made my heart break all over again, and I told him how I spent the night in my parents’ guest room crying my eyes out to Aunt Lu.
He looked at me and said, “We are never going through that again. Ever. This is how Christmas should be spent – happy and together.” He didn’t have to convince me. Then he said something that surprised me. He said that we should make a promise that no matter what, we will always be together on Christmas. That wasn’t a hard promise to make. Sitting there, warm and happy, snuggled up close to him was much better than being down in Florida in that cold house crying my eyes out over a heart that wouldn’t stop breaking.
Everyone had left at that point and the rest of his family had gone to sleep. It was well past midnight so Josh told me that he wanted to give me my Christmas present. He said that it will be more special at night anyway. I couldn’t figure out what in the world it could be – but it was the coolest gift ever. It was a star projector. We took it down in his basement where it was really dark and turned it on. It projected the night sky on to the ceiling – little stars all over the place! He told me that I could look up the stars all the time now. I loved it, and I loved sitting there in the dark with him looking up at the “stars.” It was so romantic and so special because I could tell he had put a lot of thought into that gift.
On Christmas I spent the day at Uncle Bill and Aunt Linda’s house. We had a nice day. Brett got Guitar Hero and we spent half the day playing it. Aunt Lu thought we were all nuts and we should learn how to play a real guitar.
Last night I spent the evening at the Anderson’s. I had dessert with them and then we all watched the movie “Elf.” Josh had a few more presents for me – mostly stuff from England. He brought me back the most amazing soap. I know it sounds crazy but I love Woods of Windsor soap. Natalie’s mother always had it and I thought it was the nicest soap in the world. So Josh picked up some for me when he went to Windsor Castle. I was so excited!
So that was Christmas. Today I went out to lunch with Molly, Jennifer and Lindsay. Tonight is Molly’s family party. Josh and I are going over there, and then tomorrow he and I are going to spend the day together – a whole day, just the two of us.
That’s all for now. Merry Christmas!
Monday, December 24, 2007
I just got home from an emergency shopping trip with Lauren. She called me last night when I was in Lancaster with Aunt Lu and Mom. She was frantic because she has nothing to wear tonight and Alex and his parents will be at the Christmas Eve party and she has to look perfect. It went on and on. It was 11:30 when we got home and Lauren came over and I tried to help her find something in my closet to wear. She was afraid Alex would recognize all of my clothes (like guys pay that much attention to a girl they are just friends with), so we got up at the crack of dawn this morning to drive down to the mall and buy her a new outfit. It worked out though because I found a new dress to wear.
When we got home Josh and his father were getting ready to make a grocery store run. I could tell that he's feeling better. His eyes were brighter and he looked more energetic. He told me that he has to do some last minute Christmas shopping this afternoon. I was teasing him that he hadn't bought my present yet, but he said, "Your present has been sitting in my room since Thanksgiving - and you're going to love it." Hmm...wonder what it is!?!
His father wanted to get going so Josh said he'll stop over when they get back. In the meantime, Aunt Lu needs my help baking so I better get down to the kitchen.
When we got home Josh and his father were getting ready to make a grocery store run. I could tell that he's feeling better. His eyes were brighter and he looked more energetic. He told me that he has to do some last minute Christmas shopping this afternoon. I was teasing him that he hadn't bought my present yet, but he said, "Your present has been sitting in my room since Thanksgiving - and you're going to love it." Hmm...wonder what it is!?!
His father wanted to get going so Josh said he'll stop over when they get back. In the meantime, Aunt Lu needs my help baking so I better get down to the kitchen.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Josh is sick today. :( When I saw his family at church this morning without him I just knew it. He's been dragging since he got back and I knew it was more than jet lag. I stopped over to see him a little while ago and I could tell he's running a fever. Poor guy. It sucks. He's here and he feels crappy.
We had fun last night though - but even then I could tell he wasn't completely himself. Our evening started off with the dance recital. I did a swing dance with JD to "Rockin' Around The Christmas Tree." Then a little bit later in the show, Josh and I sang our song. It would have been nice to dance with him but singing was fun too. After our performance we ran backstage and he pulled me aside and laid a big kiss on me. So sweet.
After the show was over there was a brief reception. A lot of our supporters from this summer were there to see Josh. It was cute. He's got fans. :) Mostly - no make that ALL - of them are women. No surprise there. Luckily they are mostly older women and married and one of them told me she hopes that Josh and I get married. (You should have seen my mother's face when she heard that. Priceless.)
Then it was over to Angelo's for the Doo Wop Reunion. (I kept calling it that and Josh kept rolling his eyes at me.) The set started at 9:00 and they performed until 10:30. They mixed in some Christmas songs, doo wop style, like "Hey Santa Claus" and of course the famous Drifter's rendition of "White Christmas." Lauren sang "Make Me Your Baby." So obviously for Alex (more on that later).
I sang "Hello Stranger" and Josh knew it was for him. He was sitting in the front row with his parents, my mom and Aunt Lu while I was singing. He kept smiling at me and I was grinning non-stop. The song was just so perfect.
After my song Ron says, "So I guess a lot of you went to the dance recital tonight. I guess you saw that our Josh Anderson sang at a dance recital." Everyone cheered and Josh stood there looking at Ron wondering what was coming. Ron went on, "Who sings at a dance recital, man?" Josh was like, "I've been in England for four months - no time to learn a new dance." So Ron shook his head and said, "If you can sing at a dance show, you can dance at a singing show." Then he looked at me and said, "Josh, get your girl." They started playing "The Morse Code of Love." Josh looked at them and said, "If I dance who will sing?" Ron said, "We'll take care of that."
So Josh and I did our swing routine. He looked scared at first. We haven't done it in almost five months. I was afraid I'd forget it, and we did have to improvise a bit but it came off okay. When I choreographed that song I was still mad a Josh. It was from the very beginning of our dance contest when there were still a lot of hurt feelings. I added to the end a part where Josh is on his knees begging me to come back to him. At the time I liked it but last night when I looked at Josh as he was doing it, we both started laughing and we were hysterical for the rest of the dance. Everyone seemed to enjoy it but it wasn't our best work.
After the show we talked to people but I could see that Josh wasn't himself. He ended up leaving by 11:00 to go home and get in bed. I was walking him out to his car and we were leaving the restaurant through the back door when we spotted Alex and Lauren kissing in the back! Josh and I were standing there in shock and then he grabbed my arm and pulled me away so that we didn't interupt! Oh My God!!!!!! It's about time, isn't it?
Josh and I were going to go out tonight but I told him to stay home and rest up. I don't want him to be sick on Christmas. Instead, I'm going to go with my mom and Aunt Lu to see Aunt Lu's sister. Gotta run!
We had fun last night though - but even then I could tell he wasn't completely himself. Our evening started off with the dance recital. I did a swing dance with JD to "Rockin' Around The Christmas Tree." Then a little bit later in the show, Josh and I sang our song. It would have been nice to dance with him but singing was fun too. After our performance we ran backstage and he pulled me aside and laid a big kiss on me. So sweet.
After the show was over there was a brief reception. A lot of our supporters from this summer were there to see Josh. It was cute. He's got fans. :) Mostly - no make that ALL - of them are women. No surprise there. Luckily they are mostly older women and married and one of them told me she hopes that Josh and I get married. (You should have seen my mother's face when she heard that. Priceless.)
Then it was over to Angelo's for the Doo Wop Reunion. (I kept calling it that and Josh kept rolling his eyes at me.) The set started at 9:00 and they performed until 10:30. They mixed in some Christmas songs, doo wop style, like "Hey Santa Claus" and of course the famous Drifter's rendition of "White Christmas." Lauren sang "Make Me Your Baby." So obviously for Alex (more on that later).
I sang "Hello Stranger" and Josh knew it was for him. He was sitting in the front row with his parents, my mom and Aunt Lu while I was singing. He kept smiling at me and I was grinning non-stop. The song was just so perfect.
After my song Ron says, "So I guess a lot of you went to the dance recital tonight. I guess you saw that our Josh Anderson sang at a dance recital." Everyone cheered and Josh stood there looking at Ron wondering what was coming. Ron went on, "Who sings at a dance recital, man?" Josh was like, "I've been in England for four months - no time to learn a new dance." So Ron shook his head and said, "If you can sing at a dance show, you can dance at a singing show." Then he looked at me and said, "Josh, get your girl." They started playing "The Morse Code of Love." Josh looked at them and said, "If I dance who will sing?" Ron said, "We'll take care of that."
So Josh and I did our swing routine. He looked scared at first. We haven't done it in almost five months. I was afraid I'd forget it, and we did have to improvise a bit but it came off okay. When I choreographed that song I was still mad a Josh. It was from the very beginning of our dance contest when there were still a lot of hurt feelings. I added to the end a part where Josh is on his knees begging me to come back to him. At the time I liked it but last night when I looked at Josh as he was doing it, we both started laughing and we were hysterical for the rest of the dance. Everyone seemed to enjoy it but it wasn't our best work.
After the show we talked to people but I could see that Josh wasn't himself. He ended up leaving by 11:00 to go home and get in bed. I was walking him out to his car and we were leaving the restaurant through the back door when we spotted Alex and Lauren kissing in the back! Josh and I were standing there in shock and then he grabbed my arm and pulled me away so that we didn't interupt! Oh My God!!!!!! It's about time, isn't it?
Josh and I were going to go out tonight but I told him to stay home and rest up. I don't want him to be sick on Christmas. Instead, I'm going to go with my mom and Aunt Lu to see Aunt Lu's sister. Gotta run!
Saturday, December 22, 2007
I finally heard from Josh around 8:00 last night. He sounded strange when I answered the phone and he said, “I’m not coming home tomorrow.” You can probably imagine that I was kind of freaking out. I was like, “what do you mean you’re not coming home?” He said something back but I couldn’t hear him. There was too much party noise. Then he said, “I’m having trouble hearing you over all the noise. Can you step outside?” My heart was pounding and I could feel myself getting angry. I grabbed my coat and walked out the front door.
I stopped short about halfway down the path when I saw Josh standing there leaning against a light pole. I started laughing as he walked over and pulled me into his arms. He said, “Oh, did I forget to mention that I’m not coming home tomorrow because I’m already here?” I punched him lightly in the arm and said, “You jerk!” He kissed me and told me he finished everything up early and called the airline to find out if he could fly home a day early. They told him he’d have to fly standby so he didn’t tell me he was going to try to come home early in case it didn’t work out. If I had noticed that he was calling from his cell phone I would have realized that he wasn’t in England but I did think about that until later!
Apparently Josh was the friend that Alex had to pick up at JFK. I can’t believe I didn’t put two and two together. Looking back on it, it all seems so obvious.
We went inside and Lauren looked so excited to see her brother. It was really cute. Alex looked a little disappointed that he wasn’t getting Lauren’s attention. LOL, he deserves it...
The party was a million times better after Josh got there. I was so thrilled that he was there. I kept holding his hand and smiling at him the whole time. Everything just seemed happier and better with him there.
Around 11:00 Josh looked completely beat. I think it was like 4 a.m. in England. I took him down to my bedroom and told him to go to sleep. I could tell he felt bad about going to bed when the party was still in full swing but I didn’t want him to get sick. I went back to the party for a few more hours. When I finally went to sleep I kept thinking, “I can’t believe he’s really here!”
The next morning I woke up and Josh wasn’t there. I laid there looking at the ceiling wondering if I had dreamed up the night before, but I saw his bags in the corner of my room so I knew it was real. I went upstairs to the kitchen and found Josh and Amanda making French Toast for everyone. It was the perfect start to the day.
Josh and Lauren headed to Pennsylvania a little while ago. Mrs. Anderson found out that he had left yesterday and wasn't too happy. Apparently she had been trying to reach him in England too and was worried, but I think she was really mad that he was in the states but not at home.
I’m going to head home as soon as my laundry is done. Josh and I are going to work on our song this afternoon so that I’m not nervous during our performance tonight.
I’m hoping that I get him alone tonight after the shows. I’m thrilled that he’s here early but between the party and him being so exhausted, we really haven’t gotten to have the reunion I’ve been hoping for. So keep your fingers crossed for me that things go well. The newest chapter in the Nicole and Josh romance has begun. I hope it has some steamy passages!
I stopped short about halfway down the path when I saw Josh standing there leaning against a light pole. I started laughing as he walked over and pulled me into his arms. He said, “Oh, did I forget to mention that I’m not coming home tomorrow because I’m already here?” I punched him lightly in the arm and said, “You jerk!” He kissed me and told me he finished everything up early and called the airline to find out if he could fly home a day early. They told him he’d have to fly standby so he didn’t tell me he was going to try to come home early in case it didn’t work out. If I had noticed that he was calling from his cell phone I would have realized that he wasn’t in England but I did think about that until later!
Apparently Josh was the friend that Alex had to pick up at JFK. I can’t believe I didn’t put two and two together. Looking back on it, it all seems so obvious.
We went inside and Lauren looked so excited to see her brother. It was really cute. Alex looked a little disappointed that he wasn’t getting Lauren’s attention. LOL, he deserves it...
The party was a million times better after Josh got there. I was so thrilled that he was there. I kept holding his hand and smiling at him the whole time. Everything just seemed happier and better with him there.
Around 11:00 Josh looked completely beat. I think it was like 4 a.m. in England. I took him down to my bedroom and told him to go to sleep. I could tell he felt bad about going to bed when the party was still in full swing but I didn’t want him to get sick. I went back to the party for a few more hours. When I finally went to sleep I kept thinking, “I can’t believe he’s really here!”
The next morning I woke up and Josh wasn’t there. I laid there looking at the ceiling wondering if I had dreamed up the night before, but I saw his bags in the corner of my room so I knew it was real. I went upstairs to the kitchen and found Josh and Amanda making French Toast for everyone. It was the perfect start to the day.
Josh and Lauren headed to Pennsylvania a little while ago. Mrs. Anderson found out that he had left yesterday and wasn't too happy. Apparently she had been trying to reach him in England too and was worried, but I think she was really mad that he was in the states but not at home.
I’m going to head home as soon as my laundry is done. Josh and I are going to work on our song this afternoon so that I’m not nervous during our performance tonight.
I’m hoping that I get him alone tonight after the shows. I’m thrilled that he’s here early but between the party and him being so exhausted, we really haven’t gotten to have the reunion I’ve been hoping for. So keep your fingers crossed for me that things go well. The newest chapter in the Nicole and Josh romance has begun. I hope it has some steamy passages!
Friday, December 21, 2007
We're all set for the party tonight. Molly really did go all out with the decorations. Everywhere you look in our house you see something related to Christmas. She even put Santa window clings on the mirror in the bathroom. You literally can't go anywhere without being reminded that it's Christmas time.
Alex called me a little while ago to tell me that he's picking up a friend at JFK tonight and then coming down to our party. I told him that the "friend" better not be a girlfriend. All I need is for Alex to show up at our house with some girl and have Lauren get all upset. Alex promised that the friend is a guy and then he told me that there is nothing going on between him and Lauren and he's free to do what he wants. That's what he says but we all see the way he looks at Lauren. He's got to stop giving her mixed signals. It's just no fair.
I haven't heard from Josh at all today. I'm actually a little worried. We've been talking non-stop this week and I usually get an email from him every day. Molly says he's probably busy packing and saying good-bye to his friends. She's probably right. I just hope he's okay. I left a message for him earlier to call me back but no word yet. It's already 8:30 p.m. over and he has an early flight tomorrow so I assume that I'll hear from him in the next few hours.
My mom is flying in tonight. She's officially done with Florida and is going to be staying with Aunt Lu while she looks for a place of her own. I hope that this works out. I'm a little nervous about having her here, but I want her to be happy so I'm going to be supportive.
Alex called me a little while ago to tell me that he's picking up a friend at JFK tonight and then coming down to our party. I told him that the "friend" better not be a girlfriend. All I need is for Alex to show up at our house with some girl and have Lauren get all upset. Alex promised that the friend is a guy and then he told me that there is nothing going on between him and Lauren and he's free to do what he wants. That's what he says but we all see the way he looks at Lauren. He's got to stop giving her mixed signals. It's just no fair.
I haven't heard from Josh at all today. I'm actually a little worried. We've been talking non-stop this week and I usually get an email from him every day. Molly says he's probably busy packing and saying good-bye to his friends. She's probably right. I just hope he's okay. I left a message for him earlier to call me back but no word yet. It's already 8:30 p.m. over and he has an early flight tomorrow so I assume that I'll hear from him in the next few hours.
My mom is flying in tonight. She's officially done with Florida and is going to be staying with Aunt Lu while she looks for a place of her own. I hope that this works out. I'm a little nervous about having her here, but I want her to be happy so I'm going to be supportive.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I'm still in Pennsylvania. I decided to hang out with Aunt Lu until tomorrow. Although, I spent two hours IM'ing Josh this morning, and then he called me this afternoon and we talked for a half hour because he had one international phone card left that he wanted to use up. He was getting ready to go to a holiday party with some friends tonight so I won't hear from him again until tomorrow. Now I can actually spend some time with Aunt Lu.
Nat and Molly conferenced called me this morning to inform me that they have determined a theme for our party tomorrow night. It's "Totally Christmas" because Molly is sick and tired of the "watering down of Christmas." The plan it to make everything as Christmas-y as possible and just be all out obnoxious Christmas. A few years ago Molly got into a feud with the vice-principle of our high school because he wouldn't let her decorate with a Christmas theme - it had to be "winter theme" or "holiday theme." It was a politically correct thing and it drove Molly to madness. She still hasn't gotten over it. So her yearly protest is to wish everyone she sees a "Merry Christmas." She told me this morning that when she is done, the townhouse is going to be decorated like a department store. Should be interesting to go home to Macy's tonight!
Nat and Molly conferenced called me this morning to inform me that they have determined a theme for our party tomorrow night. It's "Totally Christmas" because Molly is sick and tired of the "watering down of Christmas." The plan it to make everything as Christmas-y as possible and just be all out obnoxious Christmas. A few years ago Molly got into a feud with the vice-principle of our high school because he wouldn't let her decorate with a Christmas theme - it had to be "winter theme" or "holiday theme." It was a politically correct thing and it drove Molly to madness. She still hasn't gotten over it. So her yearly protest is to wish everyone she sees a "Merry Christmas." She told me this morning that when she is done, the townhouse is going to be decorated like a department store. Should be interesting to go home to Macy's tonight!
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Less than 3 days...how am I ever going to make it? These last few days feel longer than the last few months. Josh and I have been emailing each other all day. I can tell he's eager to get home. I just wish the waiting were over. So much waiting... I can't stand it.
I'm going to Pennsylvania tonight to hang out with Aunt Lu. We're going to go out for dinner. It should keep my mind off of things. I need a distraction. The party planning isn't good enough. I keep thinking, "this party would be so much better if Josh were here."
Lauren is going to come Friday night and spend the night with us. I think she's hoping that Alex will be there, but he went back to Connecticut and I'm not sure if he's going to be down in time for the party on Friday. I called him and made a case for why he should come - after all, I understand the way Lauren feels - but I'm not sure that it made much difference. He said he has things to do and will try to make it.
I learned from Natalie yesterday that I'm a freak because I dance around the house and because I count out the dance timing when I listen to songs. I actually never realized that I do it, but I'll hear a song and wonder what dance it is and I'll start counting out the dance rhythm: "2-3-Cha-Cha-Cha" - I guess it's weird. Okay, it's definitely a little weird, but I can't be the only dancer out there that does it.
Anyway, random ramblings are taking over the blog so I'll sign off. I have to get ready to drive over to Aunt Lu's. More soon...
I'm going to Pennsylvania tonight to hang out with Aunt Lu. We're going to go out for dinner. It should keep my mind off of things. I need a distraction. The party planning isn't good enough. I keep thinking, "this party would be so much better if Josh were here."
Lauren is going to come Friday night and spend the night with us. I think she's hoping that Alex will be there, but he went back to Connecticut and I'm not sure if he's going to be down in time for the party on Friday. I called him and made a case for why he should come - after all, I understand the way Lauren feels - but I'm not sure that it made much difference. He said he has things to do and will try to make it.
I learned from Natalie yesterday that I'm a freak because I dance around the house and because I count out the dance timing when I listen to songs. I actually never realized that I do it, but I'll hear a song and wonder what dance it is and I'll start counting out the dance rhythm: "2-3-Cha-Cha-Cha" - I guess it's weird. Okay, it's definitely a little weird, but I can't be the only dancer out there that does it.
Anyway, random ramblings are taking over the blog so I'll sign off. I have to get ready to drive over to Aunt Lu's. More soon...
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I've had a busy past few days. Christmas parties, shopping with Aunt Lu and going to see Christmas lights. It feels more Christmasy up here than it ever did when I was in Florida. It can't just be the weather, but I can't pinpoint the reason why. I think I feel like I have more family here. Maybe that's the reason.
Just a few more days until my sweet, smart, talented and incredibly sexy man is home! He sent me a quick email this morning that said, "Saturday: You. Me. Mistletoe. Are we still on?"
I am going crazy waiting for the weekend. I needed something to take my mind off of the waiting so we decided to throw a Christmas party on Friday night. I'm supposed to go out with Natalie later this afternoon to buy decorations and party supplies.
It will be fun, but I still want Saturday to get here as quickly as possible. I can't wait to sing "Hello Stranger" to Josh. And we have the song we're singing at the dance recital. I'm actually a little nervous about that since we've only rehearsed it at Thanksgiving. I hope I don't screw it up, but I'm sure Josh will help cover for me if I do.
That's all for now. I have to get ready for party planning!
Just a few more days until my sweet, smart, talented and incredibly sexy man is home! He sent me a quick email this morning that said, "Saturday: You. Me. Mistletoe. Are we still on?"
I am going crazy waiting for the weekend. I needed something to take my mind off of the waiting so we decided to throw a Christmas party on Friday night. I'm supposed to go out with Natalie later this afternoon to buy decorations and party supplies.
It will be fun, but I still want Saturday to get here as quickly as possible. I can't wait to sing "Hello Stranger" to Josh. And we have the song we're singing at the dance recital. I'm actually a little nervous about that since we've only rehearsed it at Thanksgiving. I hope I don't screw it up, but I'm sure Josh will help cover for me if I do.
That's all for now. I have to get ready for party planning!
Friday, December 14, 2007
It's so nice to be free! Alex, Natalie and I stayed up late talking last night. He told us that he's spent the whole summer trying to convince Lauren to sing with him. He said that he was at the Anderson's one afternoon during the summer and Lauren was in the kitchen singing and he was shocked at how good she is. He asked her why she wasn't up on stage performing but she shied away from the idea. He told us he was really excited that she was finally going to sing. He was kind of talking about her A LOT. Finally Natalie (never one to hold anything back) blurted out, "Why don't you ask the girl out and get it over with already?" Alex looked embarrassed and said that she's too young for him. I reminded him again that they are closer in age than Josh and I are. He just insisted that it was a bad idea. Oddly enough, this morning he showed me the set list for the doo-wop show next week, and a song called "Young Girl" - lead vocals by Alex - was added to the line up...kind of makes you wonder.
Alex and I went shopping earlier today for more Christmas presents. I'm stressing because I haven't found the perfect present for Josh yet. Everyone else I've got covered so I'm getting nervous. I want to get him something special.
Tonight it's a doo-wop rehearsal. I'm only going for the first hour because there's a holiday dance party at the studio tonight and I promised Mona I'd work. She likes us to be there to dance with the guests and show them steps if they don't know the dance that's playing. It should be fun.
That's all for now!
Alex and I went shopping earlier today for more Christmas presents. I'm stressing because I haven't found the perfect present for Josh yet. Everyone else I've got covered so I'm getting nervous. I want to get him something special.
Tonight it's a doo-wop rehearsal. I'm only going for the first hour because there's a holiday dance party at the studio tonight and I promised Mona I'd work. She likes us to be there to dance with the guests and show them steps if they don't know the dance that's playing. It should be fun.
That's all for now!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
I'm finished for the semester! Yea!!!!!! :) It's such a relief!
I spent the past two days in Pennsylvania. I thought it would be easier to study there. For the most part it was but Lauren kept coming over after school to talk about Alex. I feel for her, I do, but it's getting old now. She's upset because Alex's parents are coming back East for Christmas which means he won't be staying with her family as originally planned. And she's upset because her mother won't let her go with us to the Poconos for the New Year. I wish I could help her but I don't know what to do.
Speaking of Alex, he's driving down tonight and crashing at our place. We're meeting with the doo-wop guys tomorrow evening to rehearse for next week. I'm going to sing "Hello Stranger." It's my little "welcome home" to Josh. Lauren is also singing a song. I'm excited about this because I think she has an amazing voice but she lives in Josh's shadow. This will give her a chance to shine. She's going to sing the second song that I was originally going to do. It's called "Make Me Your Baby"...probably a song for Alex...just a guess.
My count down clock is in the single digits!!!!! It's almost here. Each day has felt like a life time and yet looking back on it, it also seems like it went fast. How is that possible? Less than 9 days now!!!!
I spent the past two days in Pennsylvania. I thought it would be easier to study there. For the most part it was but Lauren kept coming over after school to talk about Alex. I feel for her, I do, but it's getting old now. She's upset because Alex's parents are coming back East for Christmas which means he won't be staying with her family as originally planned. And she's upset because her mother won't let her go with us to the Poconos for the New Year. I wish I could help her but I don't know what to do.
Speaking of Alex, he's driving down tonight and crashing at our place. We're meeting with the doo-wop guys tomorrow evening to rehearse for next week. I'm going to sing "Hello Stranger." It's my little "welcome home" to Josh. Lauren is also singing a song. I'm excited about this because I think she has an amazing voice but she lives in Josh's shadow. This will give her a chance to shine. She's going to sing the second song that I was originally going to do. It's called "Make Me Your Baby"...probably a song for Alex...just a guess.
My count down clock is in the single digits!!!!! It's almost here. Each day has felt like a life time and yet looking back on it, it also seems like it went fast. How is that possible? Less than 9 days now!!!!
Sunday, December 09, 2007
I'm ready for my test tomorrow. I have studies the whole weekend. I can't wait until my exams are over so that I can enjoy the holiday season. I'm ready to start the holiday celebration. Natalie and Molly went out and bought a Christmas tree today. We're going to decorate it tonight. I got the Christmas music, Molly made cookies and Amanda ran out to get us gingerbread lattes from Starbucks...yum.
I talked to Josh earlier today. He said he's ready to come home. He's had a good time but he's ready to be home now. Then he sang me a verse of Micheal Buble's "Home."
Less than 13 days left until he's here! I can't wait.
I talked to Josh earlier today. He said he's ready to come home. He's had a good time but he's ready to be home now. Then he sang me a verse of Micheal Buble's "Home."
Less than 13 days left until he's here! I can't wait.
Friday, December 07, 2007
Natalie says that my countdown clock is a little over the top. She's probably right. She's been making fun of me lately. Last night I was baking cookies and listening to Christmas music, and doing the basic East Coast Swing step at the same time. Nat and Molly walked in and starting laughing hysterically. I don't care. I'm just glad my dancing is entertaining.
The rest of the night we baked, ate cookies and danced around the kitchen. Molly did a handstand while singing, "Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?" It was hysterical. I wish I had recorded it.
I think we're all relieved that classes are over. I'm going to camp out at the library all weekend to study for my exams. I want to be prepared so that I'm not stressed. I have one on Monday and one on Thursday. Then it's break time! I'm so excited!
Anyway, to keep the countdown going...15 days!!! :)
The rest of the night we baked, ate cookies and danced around the kitchen. Molly did a handstand while singing, "Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?" It was hysterical. I wish I had recorded it.
I think we're all relieved that classes are over. I'm going to camp out at the library all weekend to study for my exams. I want to be prepared so that I'm not stressed. I have one on Monday and one on Thursday. Then it's break time! I'm so excited!
Anyway, to keep the countdown going...15 days!!! :)
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
My bio test wasn't as horrible as expected. Today I'm working on my paper. I have all of the research done, now I just have to organize it into a paper. Fun Fun! I also have to meet up with Ethan tonight to go over some of the stuff for our last debate.
Andy is here right now working with Nat on their debate. I am tempted to go snoop on them. I really think there is potential for a love connection there. If only Nat would listen to me.
Well, I should get back to work.
17 days left on my count down! :)
Andy is here right now working with Nat on their debate. I am tempted to go snoop on them. I really think there is potential for a love connection there. If only Nat would listen to me.
Well, I should get back to work.
17 days left on my count down! :)
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Not too much time to write today. It's my last bio lab and we have a test this afternoon. Everyone is kind of freaking out because there is so much information. I had to cancel my dance class with JD last night so that I could focus on studying...something I probably should have done more of.
This is the last week of classes. I will be so happy on Friday. Of course, I'll still have another week of finals but at least I lucked out this semester. There's no final for debate class. For another class we had papers to write all semester and my bio final is pretty small compared to the lab test. That just leaves two real finals to worry about.
I left Josh a message yesterday to thank him for the Hershey Kisses Tower. He emailed me this morning and wrote, "I had to make sure you got your share of holiday kisses. With all of the mistletoe popping up I was afraid some other guy might swoop in and try to make up for me not being there." I emailed him back and told him that no one could replace him.
18 days to go...
This is the last week of classes. I will be so happy on Friday. Of course, I'll still have another week of finals but at least I lucked out this semester. There's no final for debate class. For another class we had papers to write all semester and my bio final is pretty small compared to the lab test. That just leaves two real finals to worry about.
I left Josh a message yesterday to thank him for the Hershey Kisses Tower. He emailed me this morning and wrote, "I had to make sure you got your share of holiday kisses. With all of the mistletoe popping up I was afraid some other guy might swoop in and try to make up for me not being there." I emailed him back and told him that no one could replace him.
18 days to go...
Monday, December 03, 2007
I just got home and found a box with my name on it! Fun! So I opened it and it was a Hershey Kisses tower. It came with this gigantic Hershey Kiss and the tag said, "I miss you, Nicole. Love, Josh." So cute! Then there were a bunch of regular sized kisses and the tags all say, "I love you." How cute is that?
19 Days until he's home!!!! I can't wait!
19 Days until he's home!!!! I can't wait!
Sunday, December 02, 2007
I went up to New York yesterday with Lauren, Molly and Amanda. Jennifer and Sean were supposed to meet up with us at Penn Station but she called me to tell me she was picking up Alex at Grand Central. Needless to say, Lauren was quite happy that Alex surprised us by coming into the city. We all went out to lunch and then did Christmas-y things. I missed Josh, but it was a fun day.
I'm taking it easy today. Yesterday was a whirl-wind day through Manhattan and it's always exhausting. Plus I was out late on Friday. I went dancing with JD and Damon. I only got a few hours of sleep before I had to get up for New York. And we got back home last night around 2:00 a.m.
It was snowing when we got home and even starting to accumulate. I took a few pictures and emailed them to Josh so that he could see the first snow fall of the year.
Well, I don't have much to blog about and I want to bake some cookies so I'm going to sign out now. More later...
I'm taking it easy today. Yesterday was a whirl-wind day through Manhattan and it's always exhausting. Plus I was out late on Friday. I went dancing with JD and Damon. I only got a few hours of sleep before I had to get up for New York. And we got back home last night around 2:00 a.m.
It was snowing when we got home and even starting to accumulate. I took a few pictures and emailed them to Josh so that he could see the first snow fall of the year.
Well, I don't have much to blog about and I want to bake some cookies so I'm going to sign out now. More later...
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