I'm back from Nashville. The time went way, way, way too fast. I just keep reminding myself that Josh will be home on Thursday.

Molly and I leave for vacation with my father and grandparents on Saturday. My father suggested that I bring a friend along since he gets tired quickly and my grandparents aren't exactly what you'd call adventurous. It will be nice. Molly and I can go out at night and have fun while the others rest. Plus it will be nice to spend some time with her.

I'm meeting up with Eric tonight for dinner. We're allowed to get together with our dance partners but we can't start teaching anything yet. Tonight I'm hoping to get an idea of what songs he likes and what kind of gymnastics abilities he really has. If he's good we'll be able to use that to our advantage.

Well, that's it for now. I have to get myself on the road. I promised to help Aunt Lu clean the basement for a few hours before dinner.

Greetings from Nashville. I got down here last night. Josh is working right now so I'm just hanging out at the hotel today. He was afraid I'd be bored but I've mapped my day out. I'm surfing the net/blogging this morning and watching mindless television. After lunch I'm going to use the hotel gym and then the pool. It's so nice to just relax after my torturous summer session at school!

Tonight we are going out to dinner with my grandparents. I'm not sure where we're going yet. I was supposed to spend today with them, but my grandfather had stuff he had to take care of so we switched it to dinner.

I was so happy to see Josh last night. It hasn't even been a week that he's been down here, but I've missed him so much. He'll be home next week for the holiday weekend but then it'll be weeks without seeing him. I'm not looking forward to that.

I met my dance parter for the competition on Wednesday night. His name is Eric. He's young but a few years older than me. He's a math teacher and a former gymnastics competitor. I'm psyched. That means we'll be able to use his muscle memory and athleticism to go far in the competition. I have a good feeling about him, but I'm not going to get too excited until I see him dance!

I miss Josh. It isn't so bad during the day because I'm so preoccupied with schoolwork. It's when night time comes that I miss him the most. It just feels so lonely here without him. I know I'm going to see him this weekend so I try not to let myself get too crazy.

My finals are tomorrow and then I'm free and I can finally have my summer. I just hope it's not too depressing without Josh around.

Josh asked me if I'd go to Nashville with him. I told him no. I just can't. I've committed to being in the dance competition again this summer. I get why he has to go - playing the piano is his thing. But dancing is mine. I'm not planning to hit the big time, but I want to compete in this competition and teach professionally some day. He understands but it's still going to be hard for us to be apart.

At least he's on the same continent this time. He can drive home in a day or fly home in a few hours, and the time difference is off by only an hour instead of 5. It will make things easier to handle. And I keep reminding myself that this is only for a few weeks. He's already applying for teaching jobs in the fall so I don't think he's counting on this being a big break, just something fun to do this summer.

Tonight we're going out with a bunch of friends so that they can wish Josh good luck before he leaves. Tomorrow I'm taking him to the airport. We agreed this time that it's better if I go. We don't need a repeat of last fall when I freaked out and followed him up to Newark like a crazy lady! :)

I'm going to Lauren's graduation tonight. I can't believe little Lauren is all grown up!

It's starting to sink in that Josh is leaving in a few days. I've been so caught up in school work that I haven't thought much about it. Now that it's sinking in, I'm feeling depressed. I want him to be happy and have a shot at the big time, but I hate it when he's gone. I feel like I spend so much time waiting for him. I hate waiting.

I'm trying to stay positive. Tomorrow night I'm meeting with the other pro dancers to go over some preliminary information for the dance competition. Mona said there will be some changes this year. I can't wait to get started - I think it will take my mind off of Josh not being around.

Well, I should get going. I have to drive to Pennsylvania for the ceremony and then it's off to dinner with Josh's family.

Why on earth did I take two summer classes this session? Remind me not to take advise from a psychic. I don't know what I was thinking. Why would I make a decision like this based on what a psychic tells me in a supermarket?

I miss the swim club. I miss having time to think. These classes are killing me. I just keep reminding myself that it's almost over and then I'll have summer. The only problem is that I won't have Josh. He'll be gone by then.

The reality of it is starting to hit me. I can't believe he's leaving again. I feel like he's always leaving and I'm always waiting. I hate it. But at the same time, how can I deny him the opportunity to make his dreams come true? It would be cruel to keep someone from their dreams. I love him too much to do that to him.

I'm sure the dance competition will take my mind off of things. I'll be so busy competing that I won't have much time to do anything else. Of course, I have to be paired with a good partner in order to stay in the competition. I hope Mona pairs me up with someone good. I have a feeling I will need the diversion so that I don't sit here pining for Josh all summer.

Josh got a call from the guy in Nashville and was offered a job! He's going to be down there for a few weeks this summer playing piano/keyboard for a new artist. It's really exciting. I'm excited for him. I'm sad that he'll be away for a few weeks but this is an amazing opportunity for him. I think it could lead to something big and no one deserves it more. Josh really has a true talent and he should share it.

He leaves on the 21st and will be down there until August 1st. I'm going to go down for a few days after my summer session ends but I can only stay a few days. I'm going on vacation with my dad the first week in July and then the dance competition begins. It might actually be good that Josh will be away since I'll be in crazy rehearsal mode most of July. I say that, but I know I'll miss him like crazy.

Well, I need to get back to studying...story of my life...I can't wait until the summer session is over and I can relax and have some fun. This summer session is kicking my butt!