I'm going to Lauren's graduation tonight. I can't believe little Lauren is all grown up!

It's starting to sink in that Josh is leaving in a few days. I've been so caught up in school work that I haven't thought much about it. Now that it's sinking in, I'm feeling depressed. I want him to be happy and have a shot at the big time, but I hate it when he's gone. I feel like I spend so much time waiting for him. I hate waiting.

I'm trying to stay positive. Tomorrow night I'm meeting with the other pro dancers to go over some preliminary information for the dance competition. Mona said there will be some changes this year. I can't wait to get started - I think it will take my mind off of Josh not being around.

Well, I should get going. I have to drive to Pennsylvania for the ceremony and then it's off to dinner with Josh's family.