Things have been weird this week. Jason told Josh that he thinks Eric and I have something going on! Josh called me up and asked me if he should be worried. I told him that he has absolutely NOTHING to be worried about. Then he just dropped it. Part of me was relieved and part of me was like, "that's it?" It almost seemed like he didn't even care!

So then I spent Friday and Saturday wondering if there was a reason he didn't care. Back when I danced with Jordan, Josh hated it. But now he's suddenly cool with me dancing with Eric? Especially when his best friend warns him that I could be interested in Eric? It was weird. I called him up Saturday night and kind of freaked out over the phone. He told me that he was more worried than he let on, but he didn't want to repeat past mistakes (like the ones he made when I was dancing with Jordan). So I was feeling better about things but now it's Monday and I haven't heard from Josh since Saturday.

I hate this long distance thing. It's messing us up. I didn't have time to talk to him for a few days last week and now he doesn't have time to talk to me. It makes me wonder if he's doing it on purpose to get me back or if he's truly busy.

Meanwhile, Eric does seem like he'd like to be a little more than friends, if you know what I mean. He's extra sweet and very touchy-feel-y. I don't know if I'm imagining it because of what Jason and Molly said or if there's really something there. It's so confusing. I want this to be about dancing. That's all. Dancing. Why does everything have to be so hard and so complicated?