I can't believe how much fun I had last night. I so needed a night out. Natalie, Lindsay and I went out for dinner and then we went over to a bar in town where they have live music. We were sitting there talking and Natalie turns to me and says, "There's a really cute guy over there looking at you." Lindsay's eyes widened and she said, "It's that cop that busted us for stealing the ladder!" (I wanted to say that SHE busted us but I was more interested in Jack). I turned and saw him and he gave me a big smile and waved.

A moment later he walked over to our table to say hello. I introduced him to Natalie and he remembered Lindsay. It was pretty funny because she seemed horrified and it took her a little while to relax. His friends came over and joined us and we all talked for while.

Jack, Lindsay and I were talking about Thanksgiving and he told us his parents moved away and the rest of his family is going to visit them. He has to work that morning so he's all alone on the holiday. Lindsay and I agreed that was horrible and we invited him to Aunt Lu's for dinner. He seemed a little hesitant but finally agreed.

I can't believe the guy I found so annoying a few weeks ago is the guy I invited to Thanksgiving Dinner!

I cannot wait until next week! I need a few days off. It will be so nice to have some down time. Of course after downtime, I'll be in Holiday Show mode as we plan for the holiday show in December. I love what I'm doing but some days I feel overwhelmed. I'm young and I've never run a business before. I see and hear my friends going out after work and having fun but all I do is work. At least it's a labor of love so that makes it worth it.

Josh sent me an email. He took a job as a long term substitute for a music program in New Jersey. He's moving back home with his parents and he's going to work on getting certified to teach in Pennsylvania. I guess he was serious when he said he was going to work on getting back here. Maybe I should have been more patient. Oh, well, what's done is done.

Tomorrow night Natalie is coming to stay with me so that I can drive her to the airport on Saturday. She said she's taking me out tomorrow night for some fun since all I do is work. I'm looking forward to it. I really need a girl's night out!

I've had a miserable cold all week. I'm finally feeling better. I was really dragging around most of the week. You'd think being self-employeed would make it easier, but no, there is so much responsibility with running a business. At least I live right upstairs. I was able to sneak away for a little bit to take a few quick naps.

My other activity this week was scoping out Jack. I hate to admit it, but every time I saw a police car I was looking to see if it was him. I didn't see him. Probably a good thing since my nose resembled Rudolph! I just can't believe that I went from hating the guy to being completely attracted to him. I just can't get him out of my head.

My speech is over. It went well. One of the other presenters was Officer Jack. I guess it really is a small world after all. He’s part of D.A.R.E.

I hate to admit this, but when he’s not pulling me over, suing me or questioning me about a burglary, he’s kind of a nice guy. I talked to him afterwards, and I think if we had met under different circumstances I would probably like the guy. He’s smart and sexy, and well, I guess it kind of sounds like I do like him, doesn’t it? It’s just weird because I thought he was such a pompous jerk and I couldn’t stand running in to him. And now I’m kind of wishing I would.

In fact, we walked out to our cars together yesterday and he said, “With the way things have been going I’ll probably see you again soon.” I laughed and told him I had no plans to break any laws. He just smiled at me and said, “I was thinking that next time we see each other it will be under more positive circumstances.” I wonder what he had in mind…

Josh's fan club has just taken things too far. I know Mona says I should be nice to them because they are potential customers and some of them do take ballroom lessons during the summer when we're running the competition - but I have had it with them.

Josh sang with the guys at Angelo's on Saturday night so I went over to see them perform. It was kind of weird because I'm not his girlfriend anymore, but Nat and Jason were going so I thought I'd tag along. When I got there Josh's parents were there so I was talking to them, and I noticed that Mrs. Anderson was looking at something behind me and she looked worried. I turned around and saw the "Joshies" were all there wearing T-shirts that said, "Team Josh." They obviously think our break up was all my fault.

Natalie wanted to leave but I didn't want them to get to me and Mrs. Anderson said I should stay. So we all sat down and the guys came out - they were all wearing white t-shirts and they wrote on them with magic markers "Team Nicole." Josh actually got up to the microphone and said that he appreciates that people care about him, but he cares about me and doesn't like it when people do things to hurt my feelings. He also said that he is to blame for our break up because he moved away. I was completely shocked. I didn't expect him to take complete responsibility for our break up.

After the show I talked to him and told him it wasn't completely his fault. He just said, "Maybe not, but it was mostly my fault." I still don't think that is true but I left it alone. There's not point it focusing on it anymore. Our lives have gone in different directions and I'm okay with it. It's just good to know that we can still be kind to one another.

So, tomorrow I do my speech at the high school. I finally figured out what I want to say. I've been practicing it all day so I feel pretty confident. Fingers crossed that it all goes well.