Josh's fan club has just taken things too far. I know Mona says I should be nice to them because they are potential customers and some of them do take ballroom lessons during the summer when we're running the competition - but I have had it with them.

Josh sang with the guys at Angelo's on Saturday night so I went over to see them perform. It was kind of weird because I'm not his girlfriend anymore, but Nat and Jason were going so I thought I'd tag along. When I got there Josh's parents were there so I was talking to them, and I noticed that Mrs. Anderson was looking at something behind me and she looked worried. I turned around and saw the "Joshies" were all there wearing T-shirts that said, "Team Josh." They obviously think our break up was all my fault.

Natalie wanted to leave but I didn't want them to get to me and Mrs. Anderson said I should stay. So we all sat down and the guys came out - they were all wearing white t-shirts and they wrote on them with magic markers "Team Nicole." Josh actually got up to the microphone and said that he appreciates that people care about him, but he cares about me and doesn't like it when people do things to hurt my feelings. He also said that he is to blame for our break up because he moved away. I was completely shocked. I didn't expect him to take complete responsibility for our break up.

After the show I talked to him and told him it wasn't completely his fault. He just said, "Maybe not, but it was mostly my fault." I still don't think that is true but I left it alone. There's not point it focusing on it anymore. Our lives have gone in different directions and I'm okay with it. It's just good to know that we can still be kind to one another.

So, tomorrow I do my speech at the high school. I finally figured out what I want to say. I've been practicing it all day so I feel pretty confident. Fingers crossed that it all goes well.