OMG...the judges for our competition are evil! The reason they let us start rehearsing our second week dance is because it's really our first week dance and they just sprung it on us last night. So the Samba is up first and we're performing it tomorrow night.

I am really upset. I thought I had a great strategy - start with a sweet, romantic Waltz and then follow it up with a fun and sassy Samba. It doesn't work the other way! We're dancing to "Run the Show" and I'm afraid the audience will think we're making a statement about how we run the show and it will come across as arrogant. Audiences don't like arrogant. They like underdogs. ARRRGGGGHHHH!

This whole thing is really hard. I can't get comfortable with Josh. All of the fun and friendly banter we had going this summer is gone. I was so relaxed when I was texting him from a distance but now that we're in constant physical contact, I am freaking out. I feel so uncomfortable and I'm having a hard time. Actually, the Samba is easier in that regard because it's not sweet and romantic and the physical contact is different.

Josh actually called me out on it last night. He said that I am holding him at arms length, and that we're not going to win if we can't connect. He's right. I know he is, but I'm scared.