Work was good today. Henry, the guy I taught to dance, came into the snack bar to thank me for showing him some moves. He said his date was really impressed. Always good to score points with the boss! :)

Wendy, the girl who was all over Josh at the orientation, was being loud and obnoxious today. I don't know what it is but I can't stand that girl...okay, I do know what it is. I don't like her hanging all over him. Luckily, he's still at the shore so I didn't have to deal with being grossed out by watching her climb all over him. Yuck.

Natalie is still out with Alex. I can't wait to hear how their day went. After dinner we're going over to the Anderson's to bake cookies with Lauren - too bad her blue eyed brother won't be home. :(

Speaking of Mr. Blue Eyes... my dreams were bombarded with him last night. I can't even remember what happened, I just know that when I woke up I felt like Josh and I had been together. When I wasn't dreaming about him, I was lying awake thinking about him and hoping to see him again in my dreams.

I'm so ambivalent towards those types of dreams. On one hand, I love them, because I wake up feeling warm and loving. I figure if I can't be with Josh in real life, then at least I can dream, can't I? But on the other hand, I hate realizing that it was just a dream - that he wasn't really there and that we're not really together. I don't want to dream my life away if Josh and I will never happen, and even though we've been hanging out the past few days, I just don't see it happening. He's going away to college, and I'm just the kid next door. He probably doesn't even look at me that way. Why do I keep torturing myself this way?

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