It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to!

Actually, I'm not ready to cry yet but I am completely frustrated. I got to work this morning and Terry greeted me by asking if I had any big plans for my birthday. I started to tell him about my dinner plans when Kristen (the little girl from day camp) ran over to me and gave me a hug. She told me that she had been away this week and had missed me since camp ended. It was really cute but then she said, "I saw your boyfriend a little while ago." Now, I know that she thinks Josh is my boyfriend, but I couldn't understand why she thought she saw him. So I told her that she must have been mistaken.

Kristen insisted that she saw Josh, and that he had stopped by the swim club with Lauren, so I looked at Terry who had this weird look on his face. It was obvious that he didn't want to tell me something, so of course I pressed the issue. Terry tried to act casual about it and was like, "yeah, he dropped by."

AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

That's what I wanted to scream. Josh, the only person on this planet that I've been dying to see, dropped by when I wasn't there! I started asking Terry questions and he told me that he didn't even talk to Josh.

Then Kristen said, "I knew you liked him! He likes you too." I asked her how she knew that and she replied, "He's always looking at you." ?!?!?!?!?!?!?

After that I went to the snack bar and sulked because Josh had been there and I missed him.

It's not fair. He's in town and I haven't seen him. :( I guess that shows where I am on his list of priorities. He doesn't care enough to call or stop by - and I live right next door! Grrrr....

I guess I'm just fooling myself. I should've known that I didn't mean much to him. After all, we just met a few months ago. I'm sure spending time with his family and old friends is a lot more important than giving the girl next door a call.

What a birthday this has turned out to be.