It's been a busy past few days and also an amazing past few days.

Friday night - Christmas Eve - was the party at the Anderson's house. The place looked amazing. Mrs. Anderson had the entire house decorated for Christmas. The party was fun. There were a lot of people there and the house was crowded.

When I got there Josh, Molly and I exchanged presents. Molly got me the Ryan Cabrera CD that I've been wanting and a necklace. Josh got me a cashmere scarf and gloves. He said he wanted to make sure I'd stay warm this winter since I'm not used to the cold.

Josh played the piano and everyone sang Christmas carols. And there was so much food there, I thought I was going to stuff myself.

Later in the evening, Aunt Lu and my parents decided to go home. I told them I wanted to say good-bye to Josh first so I went to find him. I told him I was leaving and somehow we got sidetracked and started talking about his trip to the Pocono's (he's there now for the week). Well, his aunt walked by and informed us that we were standing under the mistletoe - which we didn't even notice.

Josh smiled at me and said, "We really shouldn't break tradition," and of course I agreed with him. So he moved closer to me and put his hands on my waist and asked me if I was nervous. I said I was a little nervous and he said, "I promise to be gentle." !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So cute!

So he touched my face and the next thing I knew he was kissing me - finally kissing me. And it wasn't just a friendly peck. It was a real kiss. The most amazing kiss. A kiss that makes my heart soar every time I think about it.

For the first time in my life I really know what they mean when they say "weak in the knees" and "take my breath away" because I felt both. When the kiss was over his mother was calling him so he told me not to leave yet and walked off. I swear I had to grab the wall to keep me standing because my knees were so weak.

Lauren came in and asked me if I was okay. I composed myself pretty well and she told me she wanted to show me a present that she got for her mom.

Later I went back to find Josh and he was taking down the mistletoe. I asked him why and he told me that Denise (some girl I've never even heard of) cornered him under it. I was kind of mad and was like, "you kissed another girl?"

He looked at me and said the sweetest thing I've ever heard. He said, "Nicole, the kiss with her was nothing but lips. But the kiss with you was the kiss that will keep me warm all winter long." He then walked me home and kissed me again at the front door. It was amazing!

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Christmas Day was great. My dad was on good behavior and everyone seemed happy. Josh stopped over around lunch time and told me that he had another present for me. He said he had chickened out of giving it to me the night before but he really wanted me to have it. I opened it and it was the sterling silver bracelet that I had wanted!!!!!!!!!!

I asked him how he knew about it and he said he had seen me admiring it at Bon Ton's. He asked the saleswoman and she told him that I was always looking at it. It was so sweet. I gave him a big hug and it somehow turned into another kiss!

That was the last time I saw him. On the 26th, he left for the Pocono's with Kelly, Jason and a bunch of his college friends. I'm missing him like crazy. I want to know what's going to happen next, where we go from here, and if he's really as crazy for me as I am for him.

All in all, Christmas was great. I got everything on my list. I also got a cell phone. My mom wants to be able to get a hold of me whenever she wants.

I'm heading down to the mall with Molly this afternoon. We want to use some of our gift cards!