It is soooooo cold and it's not doing my body good. I've been sick for the past three days. Yesterday and today I've stayed home from school. I have to get better for Molly's b-day party on Saturday. Thank God changing it to this week wasn't a problem. Alex convinced Molly to go out with him on Saturday night so she still has no idea. The only thing that worries me is that Kelly had surgery on her knee this morning. She said she'd be at the party, but I'm worried that she won't have the energy and that Molly will be disappointed.

Math is another thing that's driving me crazy right now. I hate math. I just am not good with numbers, but if I want to get into a top school I have to get better at it. The weird thing is that I scored really high on the math section of my PSATs, I just can't do as well in class.

On Sunday I was totally stressing so Josh convinced Kelly to tutor me. She is so smart - Princeton student. She really helped me figure it out and if it weren't for her I would have failed my test on Tuesday.

Nothing going on in the Josh department. I know he cares about me. He drove me all the way to Princeton on Sunday afternoon so Kelly could help me. And like everyone else in this city, I'm sure he would have rather been watching the Eagles game. But as far as a romantic gesture: none, zip, zero, zilch, nada...I could keep going on but you get the picture.

If it weren't for that Christmas Eve kiss, and the way I feel every time I think about it, I would give up. But the thought of feeling that way again, of having a kiss that magical again keeps me wanting him. There has got to be some way to get through!

Anyway, back to bed. My head is starting to hurt again and I'm determined to feel better!