This past weekend was fabulous! Saturday was Lauren's b-day celebration at the Phillies' game. I was going crazy with anticipation of seeing Josh. All Friday night and Saturday morning I was acting a little crazy. All of the aching energy I had was overflowing. I was glad I had to work at the dance studio Saturday morning. I helped out with an aerobics class and I got to work off some of that energy. I know I'm a little crazy when it comes to him, but I know the impact of seeing him and what it does to me.

The moment I saw him Saturday afternoon all of it made sense...the reason I get so crazy when I'm around him...it's because there this chemistry there, this amazing chemistry that I have never felt with anyone else. When he gave me a hug hello, I could feel an energy pass between us.

I rode with him and some of Lauren's friends down to the ballpark. It was pretty uneventful. When we got there Josh and I sat together. When we sat down he joked that "this is where it all began" and mentioned how I had saved him the year before from a day of torture. It was kind of nice knowing that he remembered that.

After awhile we decided to go get something to eat. Josh climbed over a few rows of seats because we would have had to make a ton of people get up to let us out. I didn't want to climb over because I was afraid I'd fall on my face. He was like, "what's wrong?" I told him I was afraid I'd "get hurt." Then he held out his hand to me and said, "Don't worry. I'll catch you if you fall." I let him help me down and wondered if he'd catch me if I fell madly in love with him too. I noticed Mrs. Anderson smiling at the exchange and thought for a minute that she was thinking the same thing I was. I wonder what she'd think if I started dating her son.

After the game we went back to the Anderson's house for birthday cake. I couldn't stay long because it was also Kim's birthday and I promised my friends I'd meet them at her house. She was having a party too.

Josh wanted to go with me so I took him along. When we got there Kim's boyfriend, Kevin, got Josh involved in a game of pool so I hung out with Molly, Lindsay and Jennifer. Every once in a while Josh would catch my eye and smile at me as if to say, "don't worry I didn't forget about you." It was really cute, and it made me feel like I mean something to him...something more than friends.

The next day I went to the mall with Josh, Lauren and her friend. I was there to help him pick out a tux for the prom. Lauren and her friend were shopping with Lauren's birthday money. It was a fun day but nothing too eventful happened.

When we got home Josh walked me to the door. I kept wondering how I'd make it through another two weeks without seeing him. I had been longing for him since I left New York and now I have to wait another two weeks to see him. He gave me a big hug at the door and I could feel the electricity around us.

Then he said "you give the best hugs." I told him I thought he was the one who gave the best hugs. He laughed and said, "it's probably all of that chemistry!" Then he winked at me. I just stood there for a second and then I said, "So you feel it too?" He looked at me a little surprised and was like, "of course I feel it."

For a minute I thought the world stood still. It felt like forever with me standing there completely shocked, relieved and full of questions. He feels it too! He really feels it? So why hasn't he done anything about it since New Years? Why hasn't he kissed me again? Or told me how he feels? What's holding him back? What's keeping us from being together? Or is it possible to have amazing chemistry with someone and not feel a thing for them? Is that the case here? I'm seriously ready to start pulling petals off a daisy...he loves me, he loves me not...which is it?!?!?

My mother opened the door then. At the time I was annoyed that she interrupted but now I'm grateful. I need to collect my thought before I bombard him with questions. She told me dinner was ready. Josh and I said good-bye and that was the end of it. Next time I see him it will be prom night.