I haven't had much time to write with Natalie here and then getting ready for yesterday's big 4th of July party at the swim club. Things have been busy but really great. Actually, really great is an understatement.

Natalie left last Tuesday and my attention was turned completely to the party. On Wednesday Henry informed me that he wanted Josh to be the main attraction at the kissing booth. I wasn't really happy about it, but Henry reminded me that the money the club makes goes towards scholarships for the campers and that Josh would make the most money at the booth. Josh didn't seem too happy about the idea either but he agreed to do it.

On Thursday, Molly, Henry, Jennifer, Terry, Jill and I spent the day outside putting up the booths for the party. It was a long, hot day, and I learned that even my Florida skin can't handle that much sun. For the first time in my life I was burnt to a crisp. I've never been burnt before and had no idea how painful sunburn is. I guess my skin isn't used to the sun as much now that I'm in Pennsylvania.

That night Josh stopped by after work. Aunt Lu was out so I actually had him all to myself for a little while. He had heard from Lauren that I was sunburnt so he stopped by to make sure I was all right! So sweet... He rubbed aloe on my back for me, and then we started kissing and I realized that I'm falling really hard really fast. Maybe he noticed or thought the same thing because he told me he should get going.

I didn't see him again until Saturday night when I went out to dinner with his parents and grandparents. It was a great dinner. Being from Florida made the conversation roll easily with his grandparents since they just moved down there last year. I told them about some great restaurants and stores.

After dinner Josh and I took a walk through town and he held my hand. I don't know what it is about hand holding, but I almost like it better than kissing him. I guess part if it is me wanting everyone to know that he cares about me, and walking around holding hands says that pretty loud and clear. The best part was running into Nancy. The look on her face with priceless.

Yesterday was the big party at the swim club. I was having a fabulous time watching all of the kids have a fabulous time. The only person not having a fabulous time was Josh. He was supposed to work the booth until 2:30 but around 1:30 Jill found me and told me he wanted to see me. I took a bottle of water and some chapstick with me thinking he just needed a break but he looked stressed and said he didn't want to do it anymore. I got in line behind the last girl to let people know that we were closing until Josh's replacement got there. Henry wasn't thrilled about it but it was almost 2:00 by the time Josh finished up the line.

After that he hung out with me, helping the kids play games and making sure things ran smoothly. I felt really bad that he was miserable at the kissing booth. I teased him that most guys would love to have girls lining up to kiss them. He pulled me close, gave me an amazing kiss and said, "I had to at least kiss a girl that I want to kiss." It was so sweet and I grabbed him and kissed him again. We didn't notice his mother and Lauren walking up to us. His mom was like, "I thought the kissing booth was closed!" It was embarrassing but Mrs. Anderson didn't seem phased.

The swim club closed at 4:00 and we did clean up until 6:00. Then it was off to a BBQ at Kelly's house. After we ate Josh and I went into town and watched the fireworks together. He asked me to go out again Friday night. It's so weird because I still have a hard time believing this is for real. My head keeps expecting something bad to happen because it seems like good things like this don't happen to me. But my heart trusts him, and I keep remembering that that's what I have to hold on to.

I guess I'm just scared because I was crazy about him before but now I'm really falling. Falling hard and falling fast. Everytime he walks me to the door and kisses me good night I'm terrified that I'm going to say something that he's not ready to hear. I just have to remember to continue to play it cool.