I'm worried about Molly. She hasn't been herself lately. I know she's upset about Alex being in Europe for the next few weeks so we went out for a girl's night last night. I was hoping she would talk about Alex but she didn't want to. It was a fun evening but I wish she would open up to me about what's going on. She hasn't been herself since he left last week.

Things have been really busy with work. Between the swim club and the dance studio I'm always working. I've been at the swim club every day this week. I'm working at the dance studio tonight. I'm not complaining though. I'm getting Saturday off and then I have off for a few days next week so I'm meeting my parents in Tennessee so that we can visit my grandparents. I'll be there Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and coming back on Saturday.

This Saturday is another date with Josh. I'm still expecting to wake up and find out that this whole thing has been a dream. He's just so sweet, and so wonderful. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. Can anyone really be that incredible?

We've been spending more time together. We both worked the evening shift Tuesday night, and then went back to his house and watched the movie "Hitch" (very good!). Yesterday we had lunch together at the club. Tonight he's picking me up at the dance studio and we're going to get ice cream. It just all seems to perfect. It's exactly what I've wanted. I just wish I could relax and enjoy it. I'm so afraid that I'm going to ruin it by acting all paranoid. I just can't help it. Good things like this don't usually happen to me. It's hard to believe it's real.

The worrying is all worth it though. Everytime we're together things are so great. I am so crazy about him. I just don't want it to end.