The feeling of today is...I don't know, weird. I can't quite put it into words. It's like half of the people around here are sad and reflecting on the events of five years ago, and the other half are walking around like today is nothing. We observed a moment of silence in my first class this morning. I went to a remembrance ceremony this afternoon. I still remember being in junior high and hearing about the terrorist attacks. All of us in Sarasota felt connected to the events because President Bush was in town that morning. Even though we were hundreds of miles away we felt the weight of what was happening. Even as a young teen I knew this was something big. It's scary to think that something could still happen.

On a lighter note...

While I was home this weekend I stopped by the dance studio to see Mona. She gave me the name of a dance studio here to check out. I'd really like to find a studio that competes in dance competitions. I'm going over there on Wednesday to see what they are all about and what I need to do to join.

Things here at school are slowly starting to feel more normal. I love Amanda. She is so easy to get along with. I wish my two best friends were so easy to deal with. They both complain to me about the other. It's really annoying. I've known Natalie my whole life and she was always there for me when my parents fought or my dad was drunk. Her family let me into their home and lives when I need them most. Of course I'm going to be loyal to her, but I'm loyal to Molly too. She befriended me and made me feel part of things when I moved up north. She sat and listened as I cried over Josh. She gave me pep talks when I needed them and showed me that life in Pennsylvania wasn't that bad after all. How can I choose between them? Why do I have to? I understand their insecurities, but I don't know how to make them see that I love both of them. I feel like I can't win.