I have been dancing nonstop for the past four days. Well, I have set aside some time for sleep, school and eating, but Jordan and I have been working really hard so that we can compete. I'm going camping this weekend and it's adding more stress. I feel like I should be here working but I don't want to let my friends down. But will I be letting myself down if I'm not good enough to go on to the competition? I hope that between tomorrow and Friday I'll feel more confident about my moves.

Ballet class is okay. All the girls are like sticks. I feel chunky next to them. I've never felt chunky before. It's like dancing with a bunch of Calista Flockharts. I know in my head that I don't want to be unhealthy or look like the wind will knock me over, but it's kind of weird to feel big when I've always been small. I don't know. I'm probably just being stupid.

Well, I should go. I need to study and sleep.