Tonight is performance night and I'm nervous. For some reason Eric isn't clicking with the audience. I don't know what to do about it. Plus, I was upset last night because I haven't heard much from Josh over the past few days. Instead of rehearsing I wasted an hour venting to Eric about how this long distance thing - temporary as it is - is driving me crazy. It was so unprofessional and a complete waste of time. Not to mention it makes Josh look bad in Eric's eyes and I don't want to do that.

I'm just frustrated. I want Josh to come home. I miss him, and his absence is starting to put a real strain on our relationship. We are both super busy so we hardly ever talk, and when we do it's a quick phone call. I feel like we were better connected when he was in England. I just keep reminding myself that he'll be back soon.

Now I have to focus on the competition. Eric and I are meeting after lunch to go over some final things for tonight. I'm really hoping that this routine helps to show off his personality and get the audience excited about him.