Had a very busy weekend...no time for posts. It was good though. Lots of fun and good times with family and friends. Wednesday night I went out with my fellow dancers. I can't believe how many people I ran into just being out and about. Most notably, I saw Eric (old dance partner), Terry (from the Swim Club), Wendy (from Swim Club but I didn't talk to her), Patrick and Adam and Mark. Seeing Mark was kind of strange. I spotted him from across the bar. He was already looking at me. He raised his glass to me and smiled but he didn't come over.

Later that night we went to Angelo's to hear the guys sing. Josh was singing with them. They got rid of his replacement a few weeks ago and they were thrilled to have him back. It was a little weird. Lauren was there with her parents and I really haven't spoken with her in a few weeks. I'm still upset about what she did. She saw me with the dancers and of course she wanted to hang out since she knows them all. I tried to keep my distance because I didn't want to have any heavy conversations.

Mark showed up at Angelo's towards the end of the night. It was the first time he and Josh have ever been in the same place and it was kind of awkward when I introduced them. I think it was weirder for Mark though. Josh was surrounded by his good friends and his "fan club" while Mark was just kind of there hanging out with Jenna. It was just strange.

After the show Josh and I went out for something to eat. Mrs. Anderson knows that something is going on between Josh and Lauren and I think she picked up on the discomfort between me and Lauren too. Josh and I talked about that for awhile and then the conversation turned to us. I told him my fears about ruining his dreams. I told him that I don't want to be that person. He told me that his dream is to get paid to play piano...not to be rich or famous. He said his real dream is to have a job that he likes, a nice house, and to live there with the woman and a family that he loves. It was very sweet and I was convinced. By the end of the night we were standing on Aunt Lu's front porch kissing as if no time had passed at all.

Aunt Lu hosted Thanksgiving at her house. I woke up that morning to find Josh in the front foyer waiting to take a walk. I wanted to curl up on the couch at watch the Macy's Parade, but the walk was good. It gave me energy and a chance to hang with Josh. After our walk he headed home and I spent the day with the family. Aunt Lu, my mom, Lindsay and I watched Christmas movies that night. It was fun having a girl's night.

On Friday it was up at the crack of dawn to go shopping with my mother. She lives for Black Friday sales. It was an exhausting morning. We got home around lunch time and found Aunt Lu directing Alex and Josh around the front yard. The came over and put her Christmas lights up for her. This was a huge relief to me and my mom because we worry about Aunt Lu and we didn't want her climbing up on the ladder to hang decorations. It was the first time in a long time that my mom had nothing but nice things to say regarding Josh...and that made me very happy.

That night I went to the Anderson's house for dinner. Again...awkward. I don't know how to stop being mad at Lauren. I heard her mother asking her what was going on and Lauren denying that there was a problem. I feel bad about it and that just makes me even angrier. I shouldn't feel bad. I didn't lie and make up horrible stories. And I'm frustrated because she got what she wanted. Josh and I are back together.

On Saturday Josh and I went out. We had lunch, did some shopping, just had fun being together. I feel like I'm more alive, more awake when we're together. Fun is more fun and life is more lively.

He went back to LA on Sunday, but yesterday morning he called to let me know that he's going to be working on a project in New York for a week! He'll be back on Saturday and then here for a whole week. I'm so excited. Maybe this long distance thing won't be so bad...as long as it doesn't last long...hoping and praying he can move to New York!