Josh was supposed to talk to Amber tonight to break things off, but her friend was in an accident and was killed. She's really upset and Josh doesn't think this is a good time. I feel really bad for Amber, but I can't help but feel annoyed that Josh isn't free and clear. It just feels like the universe is telling us that it's not going to work. I don't know what to think. I love him, but the past few years have been an emotional roller coaster. We're constantly trying to get back together and failing.

I know he's home for the summer, but then what? In exchange for the summer in Pennsylvania, he had to agree to go back to California for a few weeks in the fall. I don't know, the timing just doesn't seem right.