Thursday, December 16, 2010

Okay, I did something. I called Josh last night and told him that one of the acts for my Christmas show canceled and I need his help. He offered to sing a song with me so we'll be rehearsing tonight. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm not sure if I'm making a mistake here or if I'm following my heart. Natalie thinks I'm nuts...soliciting advice on this blog, and making up excuses to see him - especially now that we're both seeing other people. Maybe I am nuts. When it comes to Josh, that seems like the norm.

I'm just so mad at Molly. I really hope I don't run into her next week because it won't be pretty. I can't believe she kept those letters from me. It's such a betrayal. She knew I loved him. She knew I was heartbroken over losing him. How could she keep them from me?

Now I have them and it's killing me to think that he wrote me these wonderful things and all along thought I was ignoring him! I want to tell him I have them, but I need to feel out the status of his relationship with Chelsie first.

Sigh...Why do things have to be so complicated? When do I ever get to happily ever after?

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