I've been thinking a lot about the fight that Josh and I had last week. For a long time I always felt like I'd get my footing and then the rug would be pulled out from under me. I know that's why I got scared about him going to California, but I am trying to remind myself that we're not in that space anymore. We made a promise to each other that we'd be in this as adults. I broke that promise big time last week. I reverted back to my crazy, teenage self and that wasn't fair. I don't want him to feel like he's married to a teenager. It's time to put on my big girl pants and start acting like a grown up!

Speaking of being a grown up...running two businesses is becoming overwhelming. My mom is managing the dance studio but it's still my business and I need to be involved. Actually, I'm finding myself missing it. I was becoming bored with it, but now that I'm no longer there on a regular basis, I really miss it.

The corporate world seemed so fascinating when I was working in Florida and just shadowing John, but now that I'm part of it on a daily basis, I'm just not loving it. I'm so torn about what to do. I could leave it for John to run without me, but I know he wants to mentor me so that it can be my business.

Josh is a teacher, so he wants me to be free to travel during the summer. His parents bought a house down in Bethany a few years ago and I know he'd like us to spend time down there during the summer. That is hard to do when you are running two businesses. And neither of those businesses feel like the right fit for me.

Josh has a gig tonight down in Atlantic City so I am having a girl's night at the house. It's a family girl's night - my mom, his mom, his aunt, Lauren, Aunt Lu, Lindsay and Aunt Linda. It should be a fun night!