I found this website that's really cool. It lets you look up the meaning of your name. I can't believe how accurate it is. Is says, "Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern." Boy, isn't that true? I do feel like my home with Aunt Lucinda is more stable than with my parents. I know she's not going to come stumbling in the door drunk. I'm just scared that once I get settled here my mom will decide that I have to move back to Florida.

It also said, "You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people." I never thought of my self as lacking confidence until I moved here. I was always part of the popular crowd back in Florida. Here, I'm nothing. Lindsay's cousin at best. I wish I had the same footing as I did back home. I'd tell Jennifer to shove it and not let her push me around. I'd be friends with who ever I wanted to be friends with.

I found it funny that it said, "Your inherent qualities are practical, technical, mathematical, scientific, and analytical." Practical, technical and analytical: YES. Mathematical and scientific? NO!

The webpage is interesting but I guess you have to take it with a grain of salt.

Nothing too eventful going on. Choir practice was kind of annoying. Watching Jennifer throw herself at Josh drove me crazy. He didn't seem to pay much attention to her though. Molly sat next to me last night and kept talking to me. It was kind of weird since she never talks to me.

Today I had lunch with Dave to discuss our plans for the prom. We'll be sitting at the same table as Lindsay, James, Jennifer and Josh. After the prom I'm going home. This is one of those times that I'm happy Aunt Lucinda is so strict. I'm not really up for partying all weekend long with Dave - especially if Jennifer and Josh are going to be there. The thought of watching her throw herself at him grosses me out.

You know, it just occurred to me that maybe I should stop thinking about it so much. It's just making me more angry. I really need to get on with my life. Actually, I need to get a life...

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