Well, the new day has come and gone. Maybe happiness just isn’t in the cards for me right now…

Yesterday I was on cloud nine. After school I stopped in the choir room to talk to Mr. Sherman. As I was finishing up with him, Josh walked in and told me that he was looking for me at lunch! I was shocked that he’d be looking for me – but of course he didn’t find me because I was logged on here writing about the day before. Anyway, we got to talking and he asked me if I wanted to get ice cream with him. Of course I said yes!

We went into town and walked around for a little while. It was nice to be outside and not be freezing. I guess my Florida blood is still getting accustomed to Pennsylvania weather, but yesterday felt like Florida. I was in my element, but I digress. I’m supposed to be talking about Josh. We got ice cream cones and sat outside talking for about an hour. As we were getting ready to leave, my cousin, Lindsay and her best friend, Jennifer, bumped into us.

Lindsay looked surprised – and not in a good way - to see me with Josh. Jennifer didn’t seem to notice I was there. She just ran over to Josh and started talking to him. He offered us all a ride home, but I declined. It was weird, I just felt really uncomfortable with Lindsay and Jennifer around. I pretended that I wanted to walk and enjoy the warm weather.

So last night I was working on my computer… I was actually going to log on here but I got side tracked by Lindsay who IMed me to see why I was hanging out with Josh. She was so weird about it. It annoyed me and I was about to log off when Josh IMs me! All he said was that he had fun in town with me and then he wished me “sweet dreams.” It was so cute and then he logged off.

So this morning I wake up in seventh heaven, but like I said, that didn’t last long. At lunch Josh came over to my lunch table and started to talk to me. Two seconds later Lindsay shows up and tells me that some “popular” football guy that I don’t even know wants to take me to the prom. It was so weird because the prom is in two weeks – shouldn’t he have a date by now? It totally interrupted my conversation with Josh. He ended up going back to his table.

After he left Jennifer arrived for lunch. She sat down with me and told me that Josh didn’t have a prom date yet and she was hoping he’d ask her. She said that she’s had a crush on him since her freshman year (she’s a junior) and that if I’m not really crazy about him, I should back off.

I am so ticked off! Don’t these people get that all I want is a friend? I’m not after Josh. I’m not trying to be his new girlfriend. I just like being around him because we click in a way that feels natural and real. I’m so frustrated. Now I have to give up my friendship with Josh because Jennifer feels threatened. Lindsay, of course, is going to side with Jen since they are best friends. I’m up against the wall.

I don’t even care about the stupid prom. I’m a sophomore. I’m not even supposed to go. I don’t want Jennifer to miss out on her junior prom, but what makes her think Josh would ask her? What makes her think he would ask me? The whole thing is bizarre…

Now Lindsay is trying to hook me up with this football player, dude. She thinks it would be fun for us all to “go together.” Is she for re