It feels like Christmas is getting earlier and earlier... One of the radio stations in Philadelphia is already playing Christmas music 24/7! It's not even Thanksgiving yet!

I'm kind of having mixed feelings about Thanksgiving. I was excited because Josh is going to be in Florida, but now I'm not sure if it even matters...I'm just not getting any where with the boy.

On Saturday he sat with us at the Homecoming game because he was Lindsay's escort for the Homecoming Court. It was fun and we talked but nothing came out of it. Before the night was over he asked if I wanted to go for a drive on Sunday.

So Sunday comes and I'm thinking, he wants to spend time with me, but it's just the same old thing. It's like we're buddies or pals... I don't want to be his pal. I want to be his girlfriend! I'm just so frustrated.

Part of me is thinking that I shouldn't bother to contact Josh or Lauren when we're in Florida. Maybe I just need a break. Maybe I need to forget about Josh.