My teacher's out sick today so they sent us to study hall...it's been a quiet morning. I'm still thinking about Josh and what I should do in Florida.

I can't help it but I keep holding on to the hope that he feels the connection too. Sometimes when he looks at me there's something in his eyes and I think, he has to feel it too! But he never does anything to act on that feeling...It's so discouraging.

Maybe I'm just seeing things that I want to see. Maybe I just bend everything he says and does into what I want to hear and see.

Okay, I've decided. I'm giving up...again.