I only have a few minutes to write today because we have marathon choir rehearsals today. Our concert is Wednesday night.

I've been dragging all day. My head still hurts like crazy. I swear Dave better run for his life if he ever sees me headed his way because I am so annoyed with him! I just feel like I can't win when it comes to Josh because there is always someone working against us...Jennifer, Wendy, Dave, and Nancy. It's like the odds are stacked against us.

Maybe it really isn't supposed to happen. He doesn't live here anymore. When I heard that he was thinking of staying in New York it really upset me. I know he chose to come home, but the fact that it wasn't an automatic choice bothers me for some reason.

I don't know. I know I should be happy. Josh Anderson wants to be more than friends. It's what I've wanted for a year now, so why am I not happier? Maybe it's the pain medicine... I'll see how things go when he comes home.