I didn't get the job as Henry's replacement at the swim club. Some girl who's in college got it. I'm not too disappointed though. I know that working on our own "Dancing with the stars" is going to keep me very busy. Mona and I were talking about it last night and she seems really excited. I'm excited too. This is the second program that I've brought to Mona this year and she's like both ideas. She thinks I should consider owning a dance studio some day. I would love that.

So anyway, I didn't get Henry's old position but I'm still going to have my old position so I'll still be at the club. Josh did get Jill's old position as head lifeguard so I'm happy for him. He's been there for a long time and he'll do a good job.

I can't believe I'll be in Florida tomorrow. I can't wait to see my mom. Natalie and Arie are driving up on Sunday to hang out with us. I've been missing them lately. I got an email from Arie. He's going to school in New York next year and wanted to know if I'm going to be in the city. I wish I knew what I want to do!

That's all for now. I'll try to post this weekend but I'm not sure whether I'll have internet access.

This has been an exciting week. I came up with an idea to do a our own version of "Dancing With The Stars" at the dance studio. I worked out all the details and made up a proposal for Mona and she said we could do it! We're going to do it over the summer and I'm going to talk to Josh's uncle about letting us do it in one of the banquet rooms at the club! Exciting!!!!

Everyone around here is bouncing off the walls about our choir trip. We leave Friday for Florida (I know, of all places...). The good thing for me is that my mom offered to be one of the chaperones so she's going to drive up to Orlando and spend the weekend with us. I know most kids wouldn't want their mom around but I'll be happy to see her. I want to talk to her about my college choices for next year and it's easier to do in person rather than on the phone.

The past weekend was okay...Josh and I went into town on Friday night for dinner. On Saturday I worked all day and he went to Princeton. That night we went to Alex's house and watched "Walk The Line" - good movie.

The reason that the weekend was just okay is that Josh and I got into a little arguement. When he told me that he was going to Princeton for the day, I assumed he was going to hang out with Jason, but it turns out he spent the day with Kelly. He conveniently left that part out. I found out when I started asking him how Jason was, and he came clean. It really bothered me that he spent the whole day with Kelly. I know she's upset about breaking up with Jason, but for the love of Pete, why does she have to cry on my boyfriend's shoulder? There has got to be someone else she can cry to. Like MOLLY! Geez... Josh and I patched things up but I'm still not real happy.

Speaking of patching things up...Lindsay and Jen are talking again. Lindsay started seeing this guy at Penn State. She's really crazy about him and wanted to share the good news with Jennifer. So she called Jen, they talked and worked things out. Jennifer's going out to Penn State this weekend to visit Lindsay. I'm so happy. I hate seeing best friends fight over a guy. And I am thrilled that Lindsay is back out in the field, looking for love. She's been on the sidelines for too long.

Well, study hall is almost over and I still have some math problems to do before class this afternoon. That's all for now!

It's been exactly a year since Aunt Lu broke her hip and went to the hospital. I can't believe how different life is now. I was so sad last year at this time. This year I'm happy but starting to get nervous about college. I kept thinking I'd just go to a NY school, be near Josh and everything would be great, but now I'm having second thoughts. Molly wants to go to a school in New Jersey - I was also accepted there. I thought we were both going to go to school together in NY, but now she doesn't want to go up there. Then last night I got a call from Natalie who is thinking of going to the same school in New Jersey. Now I'm wondering if I should go there too. I just don't know.

My weekend in New York was a lot of fun. On Friday Josh took me to the area of the city where I might go to school next year. He wanted me to get familiar with the area and see if I'd want to live there. It's okay, but it's not as nice as Midtown.

Friday night we met up with some of his friends for dinner. I had never met them before but I seemed to hit it off really well with everyone. The only person I didn't click with was this girl, Nina, who seemed like she was mad all night. But her friend, Allison was really cool. We got along right off the bat and I could see us hanging out if I decide to go to school in New York.

On Saturday Josh and I had lunch with his aunt at Serendipity 3. Josh's aunt insisted that I try the frozen hot chocolate. Oh, my God! It was so good! Yum!

That night we went out for dinner and saw a movie. It was a nice weekend. I met some great new people, spent some quality time with Josh and got a feel for the city. I just wish I were more sure that I want to live there...

I went to the Red Lobster last night with Josh's family. I love that place and we had a nice dinner.

After dinner Josh walked me to my door and said, "So are we going to the prom or should I be worried that you have another date?" How did I forget about the prom? I was so obsessed with it the past two years and this year it's like I didn't even think about it. Weird... I guess I've had other things on my mind - school, the dance studio, deciding on a college. But anyway, Josh and I are going to the prom and then to Molly's beach house afterwards.

I'm getting nervous about making my decision on a school for next year. I don't want to base my decision on Josh. I keep asking myself, "Do I want to go to school in New York because that's the best education in the best place for me? Or do I want to go to school in New York because I want to be close to my boyfriend?" I know I can't base a decision this big on him. I'm hoping that I'll have a better feeling about things after spending the weekend up there.

The weather has been fabulous! Yesterday was amazing... After school I picked Josh up at home and we went into town for ice cream. It was so nice being outside and so nice to have him home. It would have been a perfect day except that Kelly called him and was really upset over Jason. Josh was on the phone with her for 45 minutes while I just sat there. He went to Princeton today to see her. I feel bad. She just seems so broken... so sad. I just wish she was crying on Molly's shoulder instead of Josh's. She called him on Sunday when we were at the mall too.

Oh well. I'm at the library now and I'm supposed to be studying. I really should get back to the books so that I don't have homework hanging over my head tonight. I'm going out to dinner with the Anderson's in a few hours.

More later. NB

Last night was Kelly's birthday party. It was pretty low key. I felt bad for her. I could tell that she's really upset about her break up with Jason. She was putting on a brave face but I could see how upset she was.

Before the party I picked Josh up at Jason's place. Jennifer hadn't stayed Friday night. Her parents picked her up at the train station. I guess I was upset for nothing, but I was still upset that I haven't seen Josh in two weeks and our first chance to be together, he had to stay in Princeton. Still...I understand that he wanted to be there for his friend.

When I got to Jason's, Josh pulled me into his arms, kissed me and told me how glad he was to have me. It made it hard for me to stay mad.

At the party Josh and I walked outside to talk a little bit. He filled me in on how Jason was and how crazy things have been in New York. One of his classes has been really tough for him this semester. I felt bad for giving him such a hard time about not coming home.

We also talked about last year...Kelly's birthday party last year...how much I had missed him since he wasn't there...and how nervous I was when he was on the phone and I knew that I was going to talk to him. He teased me about it but admitted that after we had talked I was the only thing he could think about. He said he felt bad because Jennifer was there to see NYU and he was going on and on about me.

It made me feel much better...I was kind of feeling like he was off in New York and I was stuck here missing him. It was nice to know that he didn't just forget about me, that's he's really had a lot going on, and that I'm not some passing thing that's fading from his memory.

I'm taking Friday off from school and heading up to New York with Josh. I want to get a feel for New York living before I make up my mind about school next year. I'm kind of surprised that my mom and Aunt Lu are allowing it, but they are.

Today Josh, Lauren and I are going to King of Prussia for some shopping. I should get going since we're leaving soon.

Grr... Josh and I had a fight last night and I'm still feeling annoyed. He called to tell me that he is going to Princeton tonight instead of coming home! He said that Jason's upset about the break up with Kelly so he's going to hang out with him.

Okay, I understand that. I'm disappointed because Josh wasn't home last weekend, but I understand that his best friend needs him. But then I find out Jennifer is going to be with them! How helpful is Josh going to be to Jason if Jennifer is tagging along?

I don't know why the Jennifer part of the equation upsets me so much but it does. And now I won't see Josh until I get to Kelly's party tomorrow night. Grrr!

Vent over.

I just got off the phone with Josh. Kelly and Jason broke up tonight. I feel so bad for her...right before her birthday. Kelly's still having her birthday party but I think it's going to be kind of hard for her. I feel really bad.

Jennifer is coming home this weekend. I talked to her the other night and she seems to be doing a little better since her break up with Terry. She's just so mad at Lindsay still. I wish they would make up already. They're best friends and it's not like Lindsay did something to hurt her.

I guess it will be an interesting weekend...

Tonight is the choir concert. I hope we do okay. There's one song that we've been struggling with.

I talked to Henry last night. He got offered the job as the Swim Club manager so his position is open. I'm thinking about applying for it but that position usually goes to someone in college. Jill won't be working there this summer so Josh is applying for her job as head lifeguard.

Josh will be home for Spring Break in a few days. We're going to Kelly's birthday party in Princeton on Saturday night. I remember going with Molly last year and being so heartbroken that he wasn't around. Thank God those days are over. I guess the drama of the whole thing made for more interesting blogging though.

I talked to him last night to see how he felt about me living in the city and he sounded really excited about it. I'm a little worried though. We really haven't lived in the same place as boyfriend and girlfriend. What if things don't work out? What if it's too much togetherness? What if being in New York puts a strain on our relationship?

The New York thing is starting to scare me a little. I have always wanted to live there. The thought of being in the middle of everything is so exciting but also so scary. What if it's too much? Too hectic? What if I can't keep up? Then I worry that although I've always wanted to live in New York, I'm basing my decision to go there on the fact that Josh is there. Do I really want to be that girl who follows her boyfriend around? What will happen when I'm homesick for Aunt Lu?

I just got home from choir practice. It's been a long day... Our Winter concert is on Wednesday so we had to fine tune our songs.

Things are going well. I'm waiting on a few acceptance letters from schools for next year but the one I wanted came today and it means that I can be in New York next year if I want to! I won't be at the same school as Josh but I'll be in the same city. Plus I'll get to live out a dream to live in a big city - THE big city! My decision is pretty much made but I know my father is going to give me a hard time. I think he wants me at Princeton or Yale. And then there's my mom who wants me at Florida State! I can't win.

My mom keeps giving me a hard time about not visiting Florida. I can't help it. I don't want to. They sent me away, I started a new life, that's the consequence they have to pay. I want to spend my time in Pennsylvania. Aunt Lu is here, Molly is here, Uncle Bill, Aunt Linda and Brett are here. Josh is here on the weekends. This is where I want to be. I don't understand why my mom doesn't understand!

This past weekend I was at the dance studio almost full time. Josh wasn't around so I put in some extra hours. Mona wants me to get certified to teach aerobics and yoga classes so I'm looking into it. It would probably be a good way to make some extra money while in school. I also worked the Saturday Night Dance Party. I wish Josh had been there because we focused on the Fox Trot and he doesn't know that dance. I called him and made him promise that he would learn.

Finally! I'm posting again! :-)

Well, Valentine's Day turned out better than expected. I was getting ready to go to the church dance when I heard singing outside. Josh, Alex and Jason were serenading me! Josh was singing "I Only Have Eyes For You." It was the sweetest thing ever. I felt so special. It was like a fantasy.

Last weekend Josh, Molly, Tim and I went to visit Lindsay at Penn State. It's a fun campus - but in the middle of no where! It was nice seeing her. We saw Terry too. It was weird because Jennifer is still really upset and I kind of felt like I was betraying her by hanging out with him. I think he handled the situation poorly but I don't think he's a bad guy. Jen and Lindsay still aren't talking which is really a shame. Lindsay didn't do anything to deserve the silent treatment.