Last night was Kelly's birthday party. It was pretty low key. I felt bad for her. I could tell that she's really upset about her break up with Jason. She was putting on a brave face but I could see how upset she was.

Before the party I picked Josh up at Jason's place. Jennifer hadn't stayed Friday night. Her parents picked her up at the train station. I guess I was upset for nothing, but I was still upset that I haven't seen Josh in two weeks and our first chance to be together, he had to stay in Princeton. Still...I understand that he wanted to be there for his friend.

When I got to Jason's, Josh pulled me into his arms, kissed me and told me how glad he was to have me. It made it hard for me to stay mad.

At the party Josh and I walked outside to talk a little bit. He filled me in on how Jason was and how crazy things have been in New York. One of his classes has been really tough for him this semester. I felt bad for giving him such a hard time about not coming home.

We also talked about last year...Kelly's birthday party last year...how much I had missed him since he wasn't there...and how nervous I was when he was on the phone and I knew that I was going to talk to him. He teased me about it but admitted that after we had talked I was the only thing he could think about. He said he felt bad because Jennifer was there to see NYU and he was going on and on about me.

It made me feel much better...I was kind of feeling like he was off in New York and I was stuck here missing him. It was nice to know that he didn't just forget about me, that's he's really had a lot going on, and that I'm not some passing thing that's fading from his memory.

I'm taking Friday off from school and heading up to New York with Josh. I want to get a feel for New York living before I make up my mind about school next year. I'm kind of surprised that my mom and Aunt Lu are allowing it, but they are.

Today Josh, Lauren and I are going to King of Prussia for some shopping. I should get going since we're leaving soon.