I have been trying to reach my father all week and having no luck. I found out today that he's been going to work! The man has cancer, he had part of his liver removed and he's been going to work! His recovery time is supposed to be 5 to 6 weeks. He's only been out of the hospital for 2! My grandmother called me this morning all upset because my grandfather keeps driving him to work. I have a feeling that this will be an interesting week coming up.

I hope to talk some sense into my father while I'm down there. I think he is preparing to die and that scares me. I want him to fight for his life. I want him to fight to be here so that we can finally have a good relationship. I want the father that I had when I was little, the father that I had before alcohol consumed his life.

My grandmother said he's been meeting with lawyers and accountants all week, which is what leads me to believe he's trying to get his affairs in order. Now this is speculation on my part, but I know that my mother is driving a brand new Lexus and considering that she doesn't have a job, I have to assume that my father has given her a large sum of money. She also mentioned to me a few times in the past few days that I'm the "sole heir." I don't know why she keeps bringing this up, but it really aggravates me.

And since I'm on the topic of my mom aggravating me...Mona offered her a job at the dance studio and she turned it down! This makes no sense at all. My mother needs a job, and a job was practically handed to her on a silver platter! Why didn't she take it?!?! Probably because my father is funding her midlife crisis.

Josh asked me last night how I can be so functional when my parents are so dysfunctional. I think it's because my mother was functional up until about a year ago. Now she's gone off the deep end.

Josh and I head down to Florida tomorrow morning. I will finally be able to see my father first hand so I'll know what's really going on. That should help to put me at ease. It will just be nice to be away from here. I need a break from the cold weather, and some warm sunshine will be nice.