Josh and I spent the day out on Natalie's boat with Nat and Arie. It was a nice change of pace over the past few days.

The meetings with my father's lawyer and accountant were just plain depressing. They went over the "estate" with me and discussed taxes. I guess I haven't been paying attention because I had no idea that you have to pay a tax to die! I kept saying to Josh, "I can't believe you have to pay a tax to die!" He kept saying, "It's not exactly like that. Your estate is taxed when you die." Either way, I think it's lousy. My father has already paid income taxes on that money (another thing Josh pointed out). Then they expect him to pay a death tax! It's robbery.

I kept going on and on about the death tax Monday night. Josh finally looked at me and said, "Is that really what's bothering you?" Of course it wasn't. What's really bothering me is that my father is making me go over all of this stuff. This is the first time I wish my parents were still married. I wish my mother was going over all of this stuff and not me. But more than anything I wish my father would focus on health and not death! His prognosis seems good, so why is he showing me wills and explaining estate taxes?

Last night I had a dream where I saw the grim reaper. It freaked me out so badly that I ran downstairs to the guest room where Josh is sleeping and crawled into bed with him. I felt like a little kid who's afraid of the dark. My father caught me sneaking out of Josh's room this morning but he didn't even say anything. It's like he's given up on protecting me from Josh and is now pushing me towards Josh. It's really weird.

Anyway, today was the first day that I didn't have to think about death (until now), so it was a nice diversion. Tonight Josh and I are going out to dinner with his grandparents. I think we're going up to Long Boat Key. I hope Josh hurries up with getting ready because it's a bit of a hike.

That's all for now (as if it weren't enough - I just unloaded a lot!)...