Last night I was a little crazy. Natalie and Molly just got back in town. Nat was working for her father all summer and Molly had an internship at Disney World. We all met up for dinner in town and then I dragged them around to every place I thought Josh might possibly be. Of course he wasn't at any of the places, and when Natalie got home she called me and told me that Lauren's car was parked outside of Jason's house. I guess that's where he was.

This morning wasn't much better. I was thinking about him like crazy so I immersed myself in Aunt Lu's backing project in hopes of distracting myself. It appears that she is single-handedly trying to supply the entire stock of baked goods for the church bake sale tomorrow. She has been baking non-stop since yesterday. We spent the morning making brownies, cookies, chocolate cake...yum.

Then around lunch time Aunt Lu got a phone call and wandered into the living room to take it. A minute later she called me out there to look at something. She pointed out the window and I saw Josh sitting in his mother's car outside his old house. I ran out and tapped on the window. He looked a little embarrassed and rolled down the window. I asked him if I could get in and he unlocked the door.

He told me he wanted to see if the new neighbors made any changes to the house. He said it feels weird because he feels like it should still be his house. We talked about the house for a few minutes and then I asked him why he didn't tell me he was coming to town. He said it was because Lauren told him I was doing well and that I was happy and he didn't want to mess things up for me. Then he said, "I hear you're seeing someone new. Is he good to you?" I told him that Mark and I only went on one date and that Mark was on his way back to Boston so it was hardly a relationship. I explained that it was really just a friendship and that I was grateful to Mark for opening my eyes and getting me to stop moping around. I told him how Mark said he wouldn't feel sorry for me because I was gorgeous, smart, funny and talented. Josh just smiled and said, "He sounds like a smart guy."

I coaxed him into the house with promises of Aunt Lu's cookies, which she was surprisingly generous with. Josh had to head back into town to pick up his mother so he didn't stay long, but he invited me to Angelo's tonight to see the Doo Wop guys perform. He's not singing (he's been replaced) but he's going and he said a lot of people would be there.

Now I need to figure out what to wear. This time I'm going to be prepared to see him. No run-to-the-grocery-store clothing or old clothes with flour, batter and eggs all over them. Tonight I must look good.