Josh and I just wrapped up our morning rehearsal. His parents are having a Halloween Bonfire tonight for our church so he had to go run some errands for them. I can't say I'm thrilled about missing rehearsal time but he is learning the dance pretty easily so I'll cut him some slack.

I've been re-watching Grey's Anatomy, and I just watched the episode where Meredith has her hand on a bomb inside of a patient and all she can think about is how she doesn't remember the last time she and Derek kissed. Now I am sitting here trying to remember the last time that Josh kissed me.

I can't remember it. It was so long ago, but I wish I could remember it. I wish I could remember what it felt like to just be normal, and comfortable and happy with him. I remember so much drama, but I know there were times when we were just a normal, happy couple. I wish I could remember them. I wish I could remember our last kiss.