Okay, brief rundown of the rest of the weekend. Alex and I played miniature golf Saturday night. I kicked his butt! When we got back to my house we saw Josh's car parked out front so I guess he didn't go to Molly's. Alex stopped by last night after rehearsing with Josh for their choir project. He told me that he didn't think Josh had any interest in Jennifer.

Jennifer wasn't in school today so I didn't have to suffer through her rundown of the prom. She's an actress and was in New York on an audition for a commercial. She's had a few commercial and theater roles up there. Maybe she'll get cast on a show and have to move up there - or better, to Los Angeles. I know, I'm horrible...but I can't help but wish.

I swear I'm like Little Miss Obvious! I was walking out of the choir room after school and Josh was standing there talking to the principle. I just froze and stared at him like a starstruck fan. It was so humiliating. He must think there is something wrong with me...oh, but maybe he's right! Maybe there is something wrong with a girl who gives up a chance to get to know a really great guy because some other girl has liked him longer. Once I managed to wipe the drool and my pride up off the floor I bolted out of there. He must think I'm a nutcase. He's probably happy that I've brushed him off.

But I've become so crazy about him. I can't stop thinking about him and those amazing blue eyes. Last night I played "This I Promise You" over and over again. I was lying there in bed pretending his arms were around me and we were dancing again. I really don't know what I'm going to do, or how I'm going to forget him. How do you put the most amazing person on the planet out of your mind?

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